Guys, I'm new here, so thanks for taking time to read my post. Here is the deal: I dated my girl for just over a year, we had a great relationship, but I made a few mistakes and lost her trust by little white lies that just piled up. This made her act not her best, and the last month before the break up, it was just too much and she left me. We lived together for 6 months out of our relationship. I never cheated, was loyal, still love her, and no my mistakes I made and know to never do it again.
I made a stupid decision when after we broke up to move out back to my dads for a while ( im 25 btw, shes 21 ).. I begged and flooded her with texts/calls. Begging her to get back with me, made myself look completely lost and desperate with out her. She is starting law school, so is still on the buzz of like a new chapter in her life. When I was begging/ constantly talking about us, she wanted nothing to do with me, then I waited it out, kept being nice, and at the beginning of the month ( august ) I texted her to see if she was going to be able to pay her rent ( we lived together I paid most of the bills, she works minimal because of school ), and she said she was struggling. I insisted i step in and help her out, and paid the rent, and her electric bill, and that night we went out for drinks and I talked to her about how sorry I was etc.. In convos prior she has always told me, we just cant be together, at least right now .Leaving the door open for maybe later
After that, I expected her to text me and things to be different, and of course, they weren't. Finally she talked to me on the phone and she told me " If you ever wanted it to be like it was, back off and let me come to you " Now if any of you know that is a hard pill to swallow, so I was just like ok. I didnt text her at all this past saturday and was about to initiate NC, when sunday she texts me " Hey, how are you doing ". I was shocked to say the least, I responded like 2 hours later and said " good, you " She then wrote back and said meet her at starbucks she will be there studying if I wanted to talk, so I said I probably shouldn't, but then 3 hours later I text her and said I would stop by because im in the area. I get there, and she starts talking about what the latest is in her life, and my god she looked AMAZING.. After we were talkign for a little while, she says she's hungry and wants to go eat. I say ok, and then I offer to take one car and she gets in mine and we go. I let her pick the place and I pay. I didn't mention us, or anything about being together, just played it cool, made her laugh, and listened to her. This was very hard because I wanted to tell her how crazy I am about her and how much I want her, but I refrained. It went really well, and before I went to bed I texted her that I had fun, and for her to have ag ood night. She did the same, but now today is the next day and I haven't texted her all day.
I kind of dont know where to go from here? Should I just wait for her to contact me and never initiate? I don't want to come on to strong and ask her out on a date. I literally am clueless on what to do, all I know is I want her back more than anything. I am staying away from other girls so when we do get back together, theres no drama. I don't know if she is talking to anyone, I don't think so because she wouldnt be out with me right? I know this is a long story and stuff, but I really need some advice, Please guys, anyone who has been ehre before knows how hard it is. I really want her back.. Thanks