Well, today I decided I was ready to be facebook friends with my ex again. I sent it and I get a message from her saying "Are you sure you want to be facebook friends again?"
So I take this as, there is something I may not want to see on her facebook. So I say "I wouldn't have asked if otherwise".
She hasn't accepted it yet, but man I might regret sending the request. I thought I was too the point where I really wouldn't care up until she asked that question. And I know I can't delete her again and I probably won't resist looking at it.
The thing is, I feel like I am above this crap. Why do I think about the girl that dumped me a month into a year lease, which seemed to me out of no where? This couldn't have been an impulse decision though, she had to have been thinking about it for awhile which just irks me.
Its coming up on two months now since the breakup. I am in a better place than I was but I am in some limbo now where I hold to any sort of hope I can. I've been dating other girls which has really helped but I can't seem to get over the hump of not caring at all about her.
I know that all I can do is take the high road and show her how much of a mistake she made. But this whole situation is so stressful. I wish there was some damn switch to stop it.