So last night was a bad night. I barely got any sleep and had a lot to do today. Pretty much went through the entire day tired as all hell. I continued to stay busy but I was like a zombie. I left my phone downstairs for a couple hours and when I come back guess who had contacted me? It was my ex. Keep in mind this is the first time she has gone out of her way to contact me since I told her I needed space, hence 2 months. She reminded me of a show that was coming on tonight that I liked.
All I said was "Thanks, I will check it out". And that was it. I know this doesn't mean anything, but wow it helped me calm down. I am now at the point where I don't expect to see her come up on my phone and when I saw the text today it surprised the hell out of me. I really shouldn't make much of it. It was just one of only a few good signs I have seen in the last two months.
I know I am in a good place which ever way this goes. I am not going to lie, I still have hope. Some people say it is your worst enemy but I don't care. I have come a long way to the point I am at now and haven't given in to anything. I have built my confidence back up to where I feel I can approach any girl in a bar and have success. I am going to stay the course and continue living how I have been. Whatever happens I know I will be fine, just feels good to see this no contact pay off a bit.