I feel you man.
Thats kind of why Im just gonna let those flowers roll. Im just curious as to whether or not shell say something about it. And if not? Whats that mean?
Also, just super farkin pissed that I pressured her into all this before new years. If I see a pic of her macking some chump just because she wanted a new years hubby ill farkin lose my shit.
I want to contact her honestly and just explain to her that I wasnt ready (she thought I was and said she wasnt really and I think thats what scared her off, but really I wasnt) and I made a mistake and I think its a mistake we just ended it and shouldve just forgot about that weekend and kept dating slowly, but im just dead set on her.
You have to understand (and clearly she doesnt...) i spent the past four years...my ENTIRE college life chasing her from a distance and then i finally get my chance and its over like that. Boom. We dated for a year but literally i avoided having sex with ANY other girls for 4 years now (and especially the last year) thinking that Now that I had her into me it would work out for sure and all that time wouldve been totally worth it.
I had oneitis so bad I pissed away 4 yrs and didnt even get to fark once with her. That bad dude. This is on another level, way harder to get over than anything i could ever conjure hypothetically and its my reality. I need help! Im blowin it hard here!