6 year relationship. Known her 10+ years. Had a very good connection. Lived together for 3 years. Went through our ups and downs. She often talked about wanting to get married. I wasn't ready. Instead of stepping up, I cheated on her during a rough time for us. She found out, "tried to forgive me" but "couldn't" and we broke up. I moved out. That was 3 months ago. The first month or 2 I begged like bum for her to give me another chance. She started talking to other guys immediately, and has been dating one pretty consistently since. I've accepted thats what i deserve. I got my sh1t together and am ready to commit to her, or move on. I've tried to go NC but she will call or text me daily. Often asking for favors, advice, or random questions. I've told her I don't want to be just friends, and that we shouldn't talk if she is talking to other guys. She sometimes says things like "if we ever got back together..." We have hung out a few times since the break up. Always goes well. Fooled around once. Havent hung out in a month. Still tells me how depressed she is and how no other guy has given her the same connection. Confused on if I should ignore her calls/texts and go NC or if I should be talking to her n going with the flow/trying to earn trust back. For the last month I never initiate the contact. I do want to start over with her and marry this woman. Not going to be her back up plan. If she hears about me with another woman it will be over. Do I get on my best behavior, stay in contact, and ride it out (hasn't worked yet although I was going out with friends before n she would hear about it), go NC, or just move on? Any advice would be much appreciated. My #1 goal is to get back together. I am prepared for any option. I'm no scrub and am ready to get back in the game if need be.
I have learned a lot from this site the last few days.
Thank you for any advice, info, or input.