First of all, don't mind my grammar mistakes
I met my ex 4.5 months ago. She lived with her family. We both knew that we are made for each other. It was great for the first 1.5 month, it was pure love and passion with full understanding,we oath to each other that nothing ever will stand in our way and that we will never let go each other no matter what. She made me to make that promise to her and I did like she is also. After that 1.5 month she leave her place coz the massive problems she had with family and she rent a room in some house. She didn't have so much money so she start one job for not so good payment. She started the second job for also no good payment and it started to bother her physically and mentally, she didn't have so much time to herself and for me...but we manage to get along.
and finally the third job come in her life, and she hate it. She was working more than 12 hours a day, but I didn't have any job for myself. I saw her one night at 12 o clock in the evening she call me to be with me, and she was pale and miserable,at one moment she started to cry and tell how much is
unbearable for her to do this, then I said "it will be better soon, you will find that one job with good payment and it will be good old times again,and if u want u can leave one job"..she said "u don't understand, I can't leave it, it's my life, I must earn money to life, it will never get better for me"...after couple of days she quit one job but it was not so relief,we was together everyday, finding a way to see each other when she could. 2 months ago she was torn by mental and physical tiredness. When she came to my place, after one hour she fall a sleep on my bed,and every day same scenario repeats. I didn't mind her behavior coz I understand her situation very well.
And to cut this story...month ago she text me I can't do this anymore,I want to break up! Later that night she came to my place and she didn't want to talk about it, she kissed me and hugged me,so everything was like before...after 10 days later same story, we spoke up this time and she tells me that she doesn't have time for me and herself and she is so chronicly tired, she just want to have some sleep but she can't. I tell her she can come to my place and live with me till she stand on her feet,but she didn't coz everyone will suspect that she now lives with me and so and so...we didn't beak up, but after I couple days she finally tells me over text message that this time is definitely. So I came to her house and tell her I'm waiting you outside,when u come home I wanna hear that in personally. she told me not to wait her, she want change her mind,she want just everybody to leave her alone...I came later when she was home, and text her, and call her but she didn't answer, then I knock on her door and she came. We spoke, she was so nervous, I shred some tears, and asking her why, I love u so much...she sad u sad that everything is going to be okay with me and my situation,but when? I just watch her in the eyes and I couldn't speak coz I felt so much pain,and I was crying...she hug me, I tell to her remember what I have told u and what I have promise u, I will stick to that no matter what! And I said
I will wait for u 5 years if necessary! she said we will be in contact,and she said it was never u, it was me. And it was farewell!
Tomorrow I called her and we was just chatting, and we exchange couple of text messages. Next day I called her and in the evening she asked me how I was? I tell her that nothing is still over between us,and I will wait her, she told me not to wait her,and she feels pressure then she knows that I will wait...
After that I accidentally find some texts about how to bring your ex love back! and thanks god for that or I will be sending her present I made for her.
I did so much for her,I did some beta male things and I know now where was my mistakes made.
2 days after I text to her, that now I will be gave her space and time,and I'm ok with breakup,I said that I have found a job and that I will not be in contact with her for some time...and that something trill have happened in my life!
immediately she text me back, she was very glad to hear that I have a job, and she asked me to tell her what was that trill thing that happened to me! I didn't answer back. Tomorrow she asked me how I was doing on my job and how was my day on it? I reply after 2 days "I'm pretty god,I'm manage to frame quickly...I hope u doing well also!" and after couple of days she replied "Sorry I didn't have credits to send u text message,it's very bad situation at my job,very bad...I was on job fair yesterday"...
I text her back after 3.5 hours... "Job fair is a waste of time...I'm glad we have chat,I'm busy now, I will contact u when I have the chance"!
she replied immediately "Ok...my friends say hello to u". I didn't reply and I stick to NC.
Why I want her back? I know how beautiful person from inside and outside she really is, and how much I love her,and I know she loves me too.
In this situation is it good to NC all the time? we are apart for 15 days, I'm not ready yet to take another step. I must change my self,and I know where I was wrong...she will see new me! I hope she will not resist.
Sorry for long post and grammar errors