Okay so where to even begin... Well i recently broke up with my ex of 6 months, however weve been close for 4 yrs. This was about 3 months ago. The break up happened bc of some baby mama drama and my ex not wanting to deal with it anymore, it started out with her just needing some space. The initial break up wasnt the bad part, it was when i started to think about it more and more. 2-3 weeks pass with no contact and then one day i drunk txted her telling her i missed her. she responded with idk what to say blah blah blah. then a couple days later during spring break she calls me drunk telling me about her day at the beach, about how she had been flashing her tits multiple times and kissing a couple guys. This is the part i messed up on... when she called me and told me this i shouldve said 'dont call me or talk to me' and just hung up, however what i did was stay on the phone with her and pretty much scold her on how she behaved. At the time i was on a serious case of one-itus and i pretty much let her walk on me with that one. This is where the sh1t hit the fan. I went out and got drunk that night and drunk called her bitching her out for what she had done. I told her i had hooked up with someone at the bar to try and make her jealous this just made things worse. she had me by the balls and she knew it. for the next couple weeks i did everything i could to make her jealous. we had multiple screaming matches on the phone and many long txts sent back and forth to each other. eventually i got her to understand why i was pissed off and why i had reacted the way i did, however the damage had already been done. I reacted to the situation very poorly but i had every right to be pissed off. Thats the meat of what happened between us. Its been about 1 1/2 months of no contact since the last time we've talked. I guess my question is what would be the best course of action? Il be coming home at the end of may and then off again early june to go back to work. i would like to see her then, mostly just to show her that im over the break up and have moved on. I love this girl even still, she was my high school sweet heart. But i get the feeling i should hold off and wait for her to initiate contact? I havent seen her since feburary and we broke up in the begining of march i think.
What should I do People??