Hey everyone. Only sort of new to the game, but really new to this situation and any advice I could get would be appreciated.
My ex and I were together for 2 years. We lived together for the last 6 months before I screwed it up. Now she had large breasts and wanted a reduction due to the back pain. She was 110 pounds with a 27 inch waist but she was an E cup. Some days she couldn't even stand. Also she had a dead ovary which caused her pain and heavy bleeding during her period to the point where she would pass out and sometimes needed a blood transfusion. She made the decision to have a hysterectomy, the one dead ovary removed (keeping the good one) and breast reduction. Instead of being supportive I was a jerk and I left her because I loved her large breasts and thought she was being selfish for purposely making herself infertile.
I left her over a year ago but I have grown up a lot since then and I have realized what a jerk I was. I also realized that I still love her and want her back. But she has blocked me on Facebook so I can't see her on there, when I try to call/text her I get a message that her # is no longer in service. Same with her email. And no one that knows us both will give me her contact info or new address. I saw her last week, she was working her new dream job (paramedic) and she looked AMAZING and so full and healthy and happy. But when I approached she said "I don't want to speak to you. Goodbye." and walked away. Our mutual friends say she is a different person and so happy they don't even recognize her. I am wondering how I can go about getting her back if I have no way to contact her and she won't speak to me. Please help!