Hi guys, to cut my story short. Sorry for bad English
My ex and I was in a relationship for 5 month,she left her home,she find 3 jobs to work,she was depresed and out of control,she couldn't bare it anymore and she broke up with me coz of her situation,and it was on Mart 31.
I told her that I need space and that I will call her when I have the time,and I told her that I have a job. After a month we start to see eachother again,not every day,it was good to be with in her company again.
I will jump to her birthday,it was in July. I was on her party,as a friend of course. After that party,she thanked me over phone message,she was very glad that I came. After her birthday we started to see each other almost every day,bit by bit. She call me and text me everyday.
In august she text me why I'm I so nice to her?
I told her: "should I be bad to you"?
She sadi: "omg no,I mean why are you sooooo nice to me? are you like that to all your girlfriends?"
I said: "I'm nice to everyone,but not everyone deserve to be soooo nice to them,I'm sooo nice to you bcz you are such a nice girl,and I feel very very good when I'm near you,you deserve my niceness "
I think this is enough for her to know that I like her as a girl and that I have a crush on her. But she didn't talk about this.
We start to see eachother everyday,she still have one job but she do 2 shift,about 12h a day and after her job in the evening, about 21h she is with me,I come with my car and we drive together for 2 or 3h,we were everywhere, on every event in our city or near cities. We had a good time always. I can tell that we have so much memories from the first time I meet her. Not only 2 of us was everyday together,we were hang with our friends together somethimes.
On august 22 she asked:
Her: "Do you like me as a girl?"
Me: "Yes,I do like you"
her: "You told me that you like me only as a frined,and that you looked me as a girl wheh we broke up???
Me: "I didn't look you that way for some time,I recently told you that you are very nice girl,and that I enjoy your company very much.
Honestly you're too cute. How cute You are from outside you are cutier from inside and I respect that most. I don't flirt with you,i just want to show you that i like you"
She: "It's weird,one time you look me like that,the other you don't...And how I'm I suppose to percieve that as a conclusion?"
Me: "the conclusion is that I like You now"
She: "very nice,like a real man,I like you now,in 2 months no,and like that in circle!"
Me: "I always like you,You said something before and I said that i like you as a friend,I didn't have the courage to tell you coz i thought you might get mad at me. I wanted to show you that with my behavior in time.
She: "what was your goal?"
Me: "you to realise that i like and that I care about you"
She:"And you don't want nothing from me? Or you are hanging out with me coz You want something to happen on that topic?"
Me: "I'm hanging with you because I'm soo good with you and I like you"
She: "You're such a diplomatic person and what if someone else come?"
Me: "As it cares to me it won't,I really like you and what I like I fight for that"
She: "There are problems,there are turn over situations,there is something that someone didn't expect?"
Me: "I'm aware of everything,I just wanted You to know that I like you and that I care about you.."
She fell asleep after last message and didn't talk about it tomorrow.
We started again everynight to see eachother.
She went to another country for weekend and she said to me that it is odd that we will not see each other for 2 days. Immediately when she came back she call me and want to hangout with me.
Just to add,when we drive I stand next to road and pick some flowers for her in some near house. Sometimes i said to her to kiss me on both cheeks.
On September 9. when i drove her home, I tell to her to kiss my chin. she smiles and kissed my cheek.
Tomorrow (yesterday) she text me:
She: "I think that You with that move showed me that you want something more...you likely miss understand me and our friendship..."
Me: "I may over react a little bit, and i don't want to force anything,I know your situation very well,but you know that i like you,i thought that you like me too as a guy.."
She: "there is something else..."
She: "doesn't matter,don't look at me as a girl"
Me: "what to do when I like you and I admit it"
She: "It's my mistake I let that happen"
Me: "It's not your fault,i thought you have some feelings towards me,that I like you for who I am"
She:"You are adorable,but when we broke up i told you not to wait me,and you got it all wrong"
Me: "I don't hide my feeling,forget about our breakup,I like you for who you are,I don't flirt with you to bee with you now,I want you to know that I'm there for you. I look at you as a beautiful girl that I care about"
She: "What do you think how You gonna look at me when i hurt You?"
Me: "Can you tell me what is the reason,you not like me?what is it? i need to know that...can u tell me?"
She: "as i know u more and more I realized that you are more and more wonderful,I don't know hot to explain that to you but I look at you with different eyes and i think if you continue to look at me as a girl we will have only problems,if you understand me...
Me: "You look me like some wuss or faggot,say like that...Now I know that girls don't like good boys."
She: "What are you talking about? if u are any different I wouldn't have led my eyes on you,nor I would hang out with you,I would never thought something like that for you...see problems already"
Me: "I want to tell you look at me like a girlfriend,brother or a lamp...it's not problems it's just i don't know,you didn't tell why you don't like me,then i can only guess i have mistaken somewhere and you don't look at me as a guy"
She: "You look on that to harshly...you can lose me as a girlfriend today-tomorrow but as a friend never...i feel so bad when we talk like this "
Me: "I feel bad also,You know that I'm realyyy reallyyy care about you...don't cut your work for me,call me when you done or we can see each other tonight..."
She: "I have pause right now,at 19h i must go to work...don't get mad at me"
Me: "I don't get mad at you,and don't you mad at me when i fight for you,I told you I fight for i like..I didn't tell you last night to kiss me on lips,I tell you to kiss me on chin maybe you thought that I want something more because of that"
She: "You're being on your own again,it's gonna disturb me."
Me: "should I pretend that I don't care about you and that I don't like you as a girl..i will not over react."
She: "Are you listen to yourself,with that you will do nothing."
Later yesterday she called me,I have promised to her that I will drove her to her village,she must take some stuff because she is moving to another place to live...We go there, we didn't talk about earlier messages,but on the way back I told her:
Me: "please don't send me again messages like that,tell me that in my face"
She: "I didn't have the courage to tell you that in person..."
she told me I don't do that to myself,that i holding myself in one place,I can have another girl and bla bla bla...I asked her to answer me does she like me as a guy and in future if a call her on a real date is she gonna say YES. She looked me and said, I can't answer you that question....
Ok guys, today she called me and we talk something else,just chatting. she will call me again later,maybe we see eachother again tonight...
She don't have time for boyfriend rightnow nor she want one at the moment.
I DON'T WANNA GIVE UP ON HER! YES THERE ARE PLENTY FISH IN THE SEA BUT THIS GIRL IS EVERYTHING THEN I EVER WANTED. PLEASE DON'T TELL ME TO GIVE UP ON HER,I KNOW THAT SHE HAVE FEELINGS FOR ME!
PLEASE TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO NEXT, I KNOW THAT WE ARE RIGHT FOR EACHOTHER AND SHE IS AFRAID ON LOSE ME TOO! SHE SAID TO ME THAT SHE DON'T WANNA LOSE ME,THAT WE HAVE SO MUCH TOGETHER.
YEA I KNOW friend zone SUCK,BUT I DON'T WANNA WAIST THIS 6 MONTH