So I was in a relationship for two years with this one girl.
The situation was unique from the start, she was out here in IL, from Wis, for the sole purpose of attending a program for those that are pre-med. So when I met her, I knew that eventually she would be moving for med school, where ever that might be.
We had our problems though as we dated, she would talk down to me, and almost talk to me like a parent would. That caused a lot of fights through out the relationship. So we had a rocky road while dating..
Now after she finished her pre-med program, she then decided to move back home to her parents, which is 2 hrs and some change away from where I am in Chicago. Now in October we officially were broken up, and by the end of December she had moved back home permanently.
Now since the break up and the move back, we'v maintained contact a lot, talking almost everyday, and she has come out to stay with me for weekends, once in Jan and once 2 weekends..
We hooked up the January weekend and then this past visit we got into a fight because she didnt want to.
Now heres where we can talk about how I lost it a couple days ago.. I was talking about if she wants me to come up for her Bday, and she said she doesnt want me to come, because if I start drinking and see her talking/flirting with guys, she knows there will be drama.. She then told me that this last weekend she met a friend of a friend at a basball game and shes been texting him here and there..
Thats what devastated me, she actually moved on.. When me and her hung out two weekends ago I was messing with her and told her I had a Gf (I dont) and she look devastated herself, so I was thinking she still had some of the feelings for me..
I told her how I actually feel a few nights ago, and she said she gets the same feelings as I do when we are actually face to face together, but dont think we are right for each other for the reason that we fought so much in the past...
I just feel horrible.. She's going to be leaving for 4 years for med school, and that will be very soon, I say possibly as soon as July... I've been meeting and hooked up with a few different women, but I dont feel the same connection with them, that I do with her..
I was actually pulling a drake and got teary eyed thinking about everything these past few days..
I really love her
Another thing is I set myself up for this in a way... When I first met her I knew her goal was med school, which meant that she would eventually be leaving, and Id only have three options 1.) Go and follow her 2.) Long distance 3.) let it go..
Its sucks though, I dont really have any people Im truly close with, and when I was with her for those two years.. all most ALL of my time and activities were spent WITH HER..
So now that she is gone, back home 2hrs away and by summer will most likely be even FURTHER away.. I find myself getting very anxious and depressed.. I have nothing to do, sure the bar/club on the weekend, but my weekdays are spend inside.