Broke up with gf of about 3 years. She is in grad school currently in another province. Had about two weeks of hanging out in 5 months. Did the skype thing phone thing talked each day. She was dedicated to me and well i to her. We talked long term things, life together, etc. Christmas time an old flame started messaging me (was ex's ex best friend). We hung out a couple times and the thoughts of her and the distance got to me. My ex went back to grad school after christmas. Three weeks later i called and broke up with her. I let it all go to my head and think I made a hasty decision. She will be home in may for three months then back to school for one more year home occassionally. With me visiting etc.
She called two nights ago. A little drunk. Shit tested some. I deflected as best i could. Asked if i was seeing anyone, i said a couple dates nothing serious, almost asked if i fucked anyone. Talked herself up saying she looked great now blah blah. I kept it light. She almost got me when she asked me why i hated her and why i left her alone. She said she missed talking to me when i asked her why she called again. Was jealous of seeing pictures of me with my friend Lucy on facebook. So she's creepin me a fair bit. I ended the conversation told her to call me when she comes to her senses (about talking and getting back together). She said ok. Hung up. A see saw of A conversation. She called me late again last night but i was asleep. I messaged her saying "hey. I missed your call" to which she said 'musta been a pocket dial'. Yeah sure. I never texted her back yet. That was this morning. It's almost 11pm now.
I am not sure how to connect with her again. I feel she wants me still and isn't indifferent to me. She is pisssssed but she definitely still loves me it's pretty obvious i think.
I tried to talk with her post break up when she came and got her stuff while she was home. She wasn't having it at all. I finally gave up after being a big pussy bitch and went no contact. Been about two months and she has called twice in three days. Probably drinking for sure. But. Yeah. How do i go about this. She is home in a month and i know it could work. I fucked up and threw something away instead of trying to make the long distance work a bit longer. At least til she was home for the summer.
How do i go about talking. Texting. Calling. Whatever. I don't wanna push her away as she is chasing me. Also don't want to completely lose her to indifference.