HI. I decided to post here, because I have read some very good advice on here. That being said I will get to the point.
We are both in our early 30s. I was with this girl for 2 and a half years. We basically had nothing when we met...and overcome many challenges in life together, and getting success on many levels. We were living together for the whole time of 2.5 years mostly. Everything was good...she did alot for me, every day...but i did not appreciate her, what she did, or return the love. Well in the beginning i did, however as time went on, i really did not let her know that she was loved...and appreciated. just more of a business partner..(as we were growing my brand and businesses) As time went on... I said some very mean things to her..and eventually one night i came home from out....and she was crying. i said whats wrong? she said she couldn't do this anymore...etc...etc. ..and we had a very heated argument, and i said some very mean things to her. I never seen this coming..as i know that i am her life...and she is mine..after that, the very next day she moved out. ....
at that time i had some important business stuff going on and she said she still wanted to be a part of. The next week, i went out of town, for 2 months. in that 2 months, she did in fact work on my stuff...and when i first went away...we spoke almost daily, and things even seemed like we might get past this...and work it out. while accessing some emails, she found some less than pleasent ones, that i had sent to an ex gf...saying that i wanted to see her...and we were going back and fourth. After she found the emails she called me...and told me that she was DONE with everything. no more working for me...no more nothing. It was over.
When i returned to town, i was hoping to see her, as i usually have a way once im in the present. I can talk my way out of most situations, but she told me...she never wanted to see me. That she completely was not in love with me...etc.not feeling me.. all this. so i got very mad...and said some more unkind things to her...as some dealings with my business were kind of messed up because of her.
so fast forward. to now. its been 2.5 months since she moved out. She will not say more than a word or 2 in response to my emails. Completely changed number, only form of communication is the eamil, which it takes her 4-5 days to respond with yes...or good luck...etc..all this bullshit.
thing about it is....yo...i KNOW this chick was the right one for me. I just cant get past the ice cold exterior...
i might have messed up by not showing love...but that love was there. I was just very busy trying to handle my stuff.
i REALLY FELT LIKE THIS CHICK WOULD BE THERE TILL THE END.
so we haven't seen each other since i have been back in town. i completely don't know anything about her right now. where she lives...her phone number...does she have a new man? all this shit.
Last email she sent was a kind of jealous one..i asked her to meet up and she said something along the lines of "why don't you go talk to those girls on your Instagram"
on the looks side of things...i have definitely done and can do better...shes like a 6.5 7 on a good day. and most of my exes were like 9...
but she was someone who i thought i didn't have to worry about this stuff with.
Ive seen this guide on this site..that says..Cody guide or something of that nature.
I DEFINITELY HAVE BECOME THE MAN. I am the man in my field, and her field of work. Not to boast or brag, but im sure in the network she is in....she cant even turn on social media without seeing me...or my items...even if i am blocked..to put it short...I BECAME THE MAN. in that sense. Trust.
I know i can get a better looking girl.
But i want this one.
WHAT CAN I DO? ANYTHING AT ALL???
IM TIRED OF WAKING UP EVERYDAY WONDERING IF SHES GOING TO COME BACK. THIS HAS MY LIFE VERY DEPRESSED LATELY..
side note...i caught her lurking on my Instagram the other night very late. she accidentally "liked" one of my photos...then quickly unlike.
hope all is well.