To add to this, as no one brought it up yet, though it is obvious...learn from this! Guess what, you may have effed up, pushed too hard, etc. but you learned how NOT to handle this situation in the future. Will only make you better in the game for future HB's.
I can promise you, the oneitis will go away with time. You'll look back on this and eventually appreciate the opportunity to grow from the poor choices made.
Keep your head up brotha!