So, in early June my girlfriend broke up with me very suddenly. May 21st she was in town for my birthday, and everything was going phenomenal. She was so happy, so loving and just amazing in general. We went to the gym, she gave me a Wii gaming system (cool, but I don't play video games much).
She goes home to chicago, and comes back the weekend of the 28th and stays until June 4th. We go to a friends wedding, we have sex on the playground during the wedding at the church. But I had been working double shifts at work, and was tired. She snapped at me, because I was a bit grouchy with the serving lady. I wasn't even aware of my tonality. I was just soo tired.
We went to the bar afterwards, and she told me she wanted to be a ring girl. And I wasn't supportive, i told her that she had a great career and that it was below her to parade herself around like that. And she snapped at me again, (honestly i get this one) because i wasn't supporting her ambitions...
and uh, the next day we went to the gym and she was showing me some BJJ and she just snapped all of a sudden and told me that I wasn't willing to learn from a girl. And i had no idea how to respond to her. so i just stayed silent,
and the next day, she came over and broke up with me.
We had always been good at communicating before that, and she unloaded on me when she broke it off. She told me that i was being negative, that I made her feel like i thought she was below me. That she had a problem with my religion (well lack there of) and that it just wasn't working.
So we ended up having sex 4 times after we broke up... and I could tell that she wasn't sure if it was the right thing.
I gave her some space for a few weeks, called her up and things seemed great. Infact, up until last week she was still telling me she loved me every night before going to bed.
I went up to chicago a few weeks ago, but it was obvious that she was purposely trying to keep me from getting close. She treated me like sh1t all weekend, and finally i called her out on it. We communicated... and things really got better. She kissed me before i came home. And, man you should have seen how she was glowing. From just one kiss. She had this look like she had just gotten away with stealing a cookie from the cookie jar.
Naturally, I had no idea what was going on and I must have looked like a virgin who just got his first kiss. But man, she was sooo beautiful. And she texted me later saying that she really enjoyed kissing me. and that she was very happy that we could communicate.
Things got so good, and then we got into a very heated argument because a friend of mine sent her an e-mail... not sure what was in it. And neither of them will tell me, but she hasn't said i love you since then. And we have barely talked until today... her birthday.
I sent her a bouquet of flowers - purple roses. And she told me on the phone, that she told her office workers that "some guy" sent them to her. and we talked for a whole 15 minutes. Sigh i don't know.
She's been testing me a lot to see if I am still attached to her. And she says that she just doesn't see us together anymore. But, really... 150% of my attention span is on this girl. And i've never had that before. My inner game is a mess, and i'm acting and talking like an AFC. And I keep trying to go out with friends and have fun but it's just not working. My mind is always on her, no matter how much i work out or whom i'm with.
I'm trying this minimal contact lately, and she'll be in town for labor day. Which i'm going to try to game my way into sex... but I really don't know.
Any advice would be good. I'll be honest, we were the power couple for 9 months. Then two weeks before I was supposed to move back to chicago... she just called it quits. And i know she was looking forward to it so much.
My first instinct was that she had been with someone else. But, i really don't see how... I mean, she works 8 - 5. BJJ from 6 - 9. And then we would talk on the phone from 9 to midnight her time. I guess there's always that possibility... but i know she hates cheating because she's been cheated on with her last boyfriend.
Sorry to turn this into a sort of rant... but, I just don't know if there's anything left that I can do. And it's been really affecting my life, but no one has ever been this close to my heart.