I am going to make this story as brief as possible but also say enough to let u get the clear picture. My ex loved me and she would do anything for me, but the feeling was mutual. We started off pretty damn good, my game on her was on point and i was satisfied with everything she had to offer me. We were doing long distance, and i somehow got to her heart and i can confidently say i am the one bf out of all her ex's that made her look forward to as far as marriage. Yes, she was ready to marry me, even only after 8months of dating. We are still young and in university, and have a lot to do before we can get to the main 'event'(marriage).
To cut the story short, i messed up, i was very mean to her once to the point she thought i was going to dump her. She cheated on me, and she regretted it. She cried her life out to get me back, and after some time i forgave her(the cheating happened after 5months of our rship). After the cheating and getting back together, things werent as good as they used to be, i could say it was trust issues....she didnt trust 'us'. Maybe she was scared id get her back, or she just had some other things going through her mind. But anytime we told each other 'i love you'...it never felt the same. We knew we still felt the same way about each other, but we never expressed it like we used to. Slowly things started getting bad, fading away. I couldnt watch us destroy what we built, so i broke up with her yesterday. I broke up with her in hopes that we could breathe and get ourselves together and maybe one day get back together. She never believed in 'breaks' ...she thought if we took one we would eventually end(her past experiences were like that, but mine were different). I had to break up with her, im a man and yet i feel so hurt, i know i love her so much the same way she loves me. But so far, i think i made the right decision. I wanna take a break, get myself together, become more attractive if possible. Then later i would find a way to get us back.
The question is, how long do i wait for? Both of us are hurt, i cant even study properly cus she keeps coming to my mind. We are not fighting or anything, we just are both sad and need our time apart. I have seen signs that she still wants me, but i do not know if she is so hurt right now that she will force herself to move on. Im scared of that...that is why i do not know how long i should wait. I have read some posts about getting ur ex back, iv gotten advice like 'wait for a month', 'groom yourself and look better', 'when next u talk to her, indirectly remind her of why she fell in love you by being yourself' etc etc.
I am going to marry this girl, so i need to do things right. Help from you experienced guys would be greattttt. Any extra littttleeeeeee tip would help guys, much appreciated. Wish everyone the kind of life and girl they would wanna spend their lives with.