My ex girlfriend and i broke up after she found out i had cheated on her twice. I am not proud of what i did but in my defence this happened 3 years ago and at the time in my mind we werent really seriously dating though she sees it differently. We have been together off and on for 9 years and i am the guy she has been with longest in her life
She found out about one of the girls last year and we broke up and we stopped communicating. I tried to get her back but nothing worked and i had resigned myself to the thought that this was the end. Out of the blue she initiated contact again and we started talking and we eventually got back together. Just when i thought we were getting back to how strong things were, she found out about the other girl (remember this happened 4 years ago ) She was understandably very angry and called me every name under the sun and vowed to never speak to me again. i tried to email her, call her, send sms texts all to no avail and she totally blanked me. I gave up all hope and after a a period of a month or so she sent me an email and we started talking again. She admitted she still loved me and actually said she cant understand why she is still in love with me after i have hurt her so much and she went on to say she will always love me.
The problem is she wont meet me for a face to face chat. One time she agreed to meet she cancelled on the night before our appointment. She says she will never trust me and worse still her friends tell her to stay away from me. she still loves me but refuses to get back to with me and wont meet me. Its very confusing because she emails me love songs at weekends when she is having a drink.
Lately we havent spoken for a month and half , no emails, sms or anything.
How do i get her back