Here is my story - I had been in what I would call a pretty good honest relationship for the past year with a girl I really do love.
There is a 7 year age gap I am 29 and she is 22, however this has never been an issue for us.
I'm an Irish guy and have been living in Australia for 2 years and this is where we met.
She is almost finished university while I work full time. We have never even had an argument which in my opinion and from my experience is a pretty good sign of a strong relationship, I love her and she loves me, she has always said so.
She broke it off with me 5 months ago and I really thought I would have got over it by now but I still miss her like crazy.
I did make some mistakes, I drank way too much alcohol at times and that hurt her and she said that to me. There was an event/party in her parents house and I drank way too much and kind of embarrassed here in front of her family (many generations of her family) I have been at many events like this before I they worked out just fine. I was just a drunken idiot - which i apologized for and she said she forgives me. I have since massively cut back on my drinking because it was affecting my life.
I also made the usual mistakes of acting like a soft fool after the break up and pushed her away even further.
At the moment she is in Sweden on the last month of a university placement and I am in Ireland for 2 months.
We had no contact since September after she sent me an email saying that she needed space for a while and that having contact between us was difficult for her and making her enjoy her trip overseas less - she said she wants to stay friends but just needs some space for a few months while she is in Sweden.
I had booked a flight to Sweden while we were together as I didnt want us to be apart for too long. She made contact with me a week before I was to leave for Europe and asked if my plans for coming were still the same.
I sent her a fairly lengthy email explaining all my plans which included going home to Ireland for 2 months via Sweden and then returning to Melbourne for just 2 weeks and moving to New Zealand for 6 months to a year. I then went on to say I would like to meet up in Sweden if she wants to and also that she is welcome to visit me in Ireland if she wants.
She replied saying the following:
I am too busy with her university work to spend time with you, I have a project to hand in on the 19th - its best to leave it for now.
What does she mean "leave it for now", bit confusing
I think she may have been upset that I was moving to New Zealand for a while - but i'm not sure as her email was so brief.
I was a little pissed by her brief response and the fact she didnt want to even see me after I was coming all the way to Sweden - I sent an angry email back to her and deleted her from Facebook, (all our contact has been through Facebook while we have been in different countries)
When I arrived in Ireland I realized I had made a big mistake sending her that angry email and deleting her so I sent her another email saying sorry and that I hope we can resolve some kind of friendship out of this mess.
That was almost 2 weeks ago and I have had no reply.
I am pretty sure she will make contact again - probably when
she is back in Australia. I was thinking of cancelling my visit to New Zealand and trying to fix the relationship with her instead but again I dont know if its possible to fix - its driving me insane thinking about it all the time.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.