This would probably make for an excellent field study lol but I am at my wits end. Let me give you some background. Must say again: I've read this forum from top to bottom, it's really good.
Met this girl a year ago. I did some work at her apartment and again and again. Eventually we got chatting, later on wine, went out three times. We got along very well and still do, nothing wrong with our communication. Fast forward 12 months and I want to escalate the matter.
She realized this when I told her 1.5 months ago that I came to visit HER ... and not to fix something! For the past 1.5 months I have spend about 20 to 30 hours, visits, some emails and sms. We have touched, hugged and kissed (once). But somehow I battle to kclose and fclose. Why? There is a lot of flirting, bit of teasing, bantering and jokes. She even mentioned that we are getting closer over recent times.
About six months ago she had a short lived affair with a married guy which went south bigtime. The wife got onto them and called my target the big S. Is this still haunting her, is she afraid of a repeat? The thing is, when I push the envelop, she sometimes shows mild resistance. Then I would pull back and try again later. Other times she would be more willing, almost submissive.
Yes there has been awkward moments, but we shake if off and carry on. She keeps contact. It's not as if she is avoiding me. But is she doing this to be polite/save my ego/doesn't want to harm my feelings? She has also said we can and will never be more (via email). But then we talk about porn which she has never done with a guy a before?! If she doesn't want me, then why does she allow visits and contact? I am not a fan of hers and I am not a newbie, but neither do I wish to become a PUA. There are excellent material out there but I cannot get myself to read a whole book/course when actually I only have a problem with closing.
Should I go for a high risk high award move? Please give me you comments or ask questions if there are any blanks spots. I'm missing somethings here. Thanks