I have a question that is solely based on an experience.
I have met this girl, about... a month ago. She was new to our dorms, and I was building my game, so I realized it would be better to have her as a friend. She would wing me in bars and stuff. It would be easier to approach girls during daytime because she will be next to me... most of the day - thats where the problem started.
She told me to sign for a class she was in because I wanted to learn how the brain works and she is a psych major. After I registered for that class, we started to hang out for like 80 hours a week for the past 2 weeks. I started building feelings towards her, so I had to do something about it. I didn't want to get hurt (it was really obvious that I got friend zoned) and, i think it was really really AFC thing to do but... I went up to her and told her that I don't want to hang out with her and I need to take a break. She kinda got pissed at me, and we didn't talk for like 4 days. All I started working on, was to get her out of my mind and stop liking her.
After 4 days, which was 2 days ago, I went to her room and said:
Me: "I know I have done a lot of farked up sh1t towards you... So, I feel like its time to apologize. I got my sh1t together finally."
HB: "OMG!!!" *gives me a hug* "Thank you for apologizing me about that. I really needed to hear that from you. You were such an asshole to me for the past couple day"
Me: "I know, there are reasons for everything I do. And I know that, you kinda understand why I did most of it. I dont want to lose friendship on a crap like this"
It looked something like that. Then we chit chatted a little bit, then I went to study for my exams and stuff. After that conversation, I don't know what the hell happened to me but I got too touchy with her. I have kinoed her soooooo much that, it is ridiculous. I started with hugs. Then, the next day, I actually escalated it to the next level. I started to rub her arms and head, then kissing her head etc. etc. We were "studying" in the library for way too long. I had an exam that day, and she had one the next day (today). So, i told her to wait for me in the library for an hour then we should go somewhere to eat. I went to give my exam. When I get back, we went to chipotle. She told me that she doesn't have money. I said "Ill pay for you, then you'll pay me back." She agreed. It kinda reminded me of how Mystery, in his Revelations DVDs (i saw it in youtube), was talking about what a date should be - go do what you need to do with her (study), grab a coffee/some food on the way, etc. etc. Make it fun basically. But I got negged by her. I had a frame with her that she is my ex-wife (i made the crazy stupid love story, story of our life. Then I realized its really bad dlv, so I stopped). She told me this: "Thank you for buying me food... ex-husband", so I replied: "thats our first date after this much time :P" Then I actually told he about Mystery's dating tip in my own words. She really was astonished by that: "OMG. that is sooooo true!" I don't know why.
We were just having way to much fun. I was kinoing her in public, kissing her cheeks, hugging. I even built up a frame that she is so tiny lol. I don't know if thats a good frame but she still enjoys being in it. After we came back, our good mutual friend (we'll call her MF) comes up and talks to us and asks us about our day.
Me: "Guess what? I took [her] to a date."
MF: "Thats cute. (sarcastically)"
Me: "It was going pretty well until... she made it really really awkward."
and I started going for an absurd right there. This was an absurd in my case because non of them believed me - I just cannot make anything awkward. I don't have that ability :P
HB turned to MF: "He's bullsh1tting you. Nothing awkward has happened"
Then, I took MF to a date that day cz she hasn't eaten anything and I wasn't doing anything. She paid for herself cz she had money And I met her cute friend and MF told me shes gonna make us hook up. :P anyways, back to the story.
we came back and go and hang out with HB again. She was studying. She gave me an IOD, so I gave IOD back and started talking to her roommate. And sometimes I would throw negs to HB by telling funny stories she did today. Then, i would IOI her and kino her for a little bit. It was going like this for like 10 minutes. Then, next IOD she gave to me, I IODed her and straight put my head on her back (she was lying on her stomach). I felt that shes not feeling comfortable for that - she had this pressure, you can feel it. I was reading something about rapport in internet that, rapport can be anything. It just needs to vibe. So, I started vibing with her by starting breathing in the same way she did. It calmed her down. We just were like that for like another 5-10 minutes. She was studying though, she had an exam today; she said she wanted to sleep. As I left the room, (she has a whiteboard on her door). She goes.
HB: "did you draw those hearts on my whiteboard? "
Me: "Naaaaah. You'll get one tomorrow "
HB: "See you tomorrow "
Me: " bye"
And today just started.
What should I do? When I read it, I feel like I am getting somewhere but at the moment, even if it goes great, I don't think it gets anywhere. I am still a friend. Thats how it still feels now. I don't care about getting in a relationship with her even I would not reject that offer :P but I want to know. What did I do good? What did I do bad? Any mistake I did, I want to fix it in my future approaches.