So, it's been one-and-a-half week since my last journal. In the meantime I've shown some heart by telling the truth, a funny thing happened with a girl I wanted to ask out on a date and I've approached on the auto-pilot.
Telling the truth. I can't tell you exactly what it is because it's a private matter, but it was something I had to get off my chest. So I applied what I've learned about being a direct alpha male - telling the damn hard truth at all times - and now I feel a lot better. There's a lesson for all of you there: you'll be surprised at how much of the truth you can tell to people without them becoming upset. Doing so will also keep you out of trouble. Everything is just so much easier when people understand your situation and why you do what you do. That's also why I don't mind people knowing I'm a PUA.
Yesterday I've helped out my school all day on a special teachers day, where they all go on an excursion and me and some other students had to guide them. I had been in a chatty, social, relaxed alpha mood all day and at the end of the day me, three guys and a HB8 sat down at a table to eat and drink free beer. I was really becoming the AMOG and they were listening to my stories.
Now this girl is modern-looking, petite (I love small women) and has a great smile she uses a lot. After a while I was like fark it. I'm going to tell her I want to take her out on a date if I get a second alone with her. But a funny thing happened. The topic of religion was brought up. She told me she was highly religious. She had even never watched TV until she was twelve and stuff like that. So I asked her if she could have sex before marriage. 'No'. I laughed but was like "WTF. So much for this." So yeah, that was a shame.
On the way home I had to wait at the bus station at my subway stop for fifteen minutes. So I walked around and suddenly I saw this gorgeous looking girl. Without thinking, I just walked up to her and opened direct. She said 'thanks', smiled but kept staring down at her phone (she started looking at it while I opened). I walked away, looked back and noticed her looking and smiling at me. The thing here is that I just auto-piloted an approach far closer to home than I ever sarged. My aa seems to be nearly completely disappeared. I struggled with it for so long, this is a really good development.
Today I went out there, at this point I want to actually go further with the interactions beyond the opener. I want to talk, build attraction, rapport, comfort and n-close. But I didn't see a lot of girls I liked and when I did see one I just didn't approach. I just didn't feel that social today - will try again tomorrow.
Exciting times for me as a man and PUA are coming up as I'm progressing.