I want to see if anybody has felt something like disillusionment with sex - not with intimacy, just sex.
I f-closed a girl HB7 recently within about 8 hours of cumulative interaction, had a few slip up, but it was pretty solid game throughout. Though I've had better moments of gaming, this was the best execution of game I've done that lead to an f-close. But looking back on it I don't feel that internal high-five that I usually feel after a great sarge - looking back on it I feel the same gratification of doing my laundry. Am I simply not challenged enough with an HB7 and need to set the bar at 8 or 9 to feel that sense of accomplishment? Because to be honest I don't think I'm THAT good yet.
Or is it some kind of emotional thing? I've recently moved away from home for the first time (I'm 23 - it was definitely time). I haven't seen anyone I've known more than a few days in about a week. Also (multiple LTR's) I was dating these two girls over the summer, both of whom I developed pretty strong feelings for. Am I maybe feeling the away-from-home + just-broke-up loneliness that "meaningless" sex can't fill?
Any thoughts or insight would help - I'm not great with understanding emotion.