It's two in the a.m. and I've got a lot on my mind. I love the Member's Lounge for purposes such as these. It just goes to show how pickup goes far beyond women.
I've said it before and I'll say it again, because I'm still having trouble comprehending the magnitude of this semester: This semester blows. For real, and it blows my mind how much it sucks (Ha. Blows/sucks, get it? They're self-conflicting.). I really should be doing homework right now but I don't care. There are more important things and I'm struggling with that too. It's a Friday night and I had to stay in when my friends wanted me to go out. Don't get me wrong, I understand that I have to get sh*t done from time to time, but not ALL the time. Because that's what I do. I go hard. All the time.
I was having a chat with one of the few bros (Real bro) that I have. We talked about a few things which later stimulated more thought, which by extention brought about legitimate cause for the following conclusions:
I really don't give a f*ck about school. I think it's a huge joke. Actually, I KNOW that it's a huge joke. Our education system is complete bullsh*t, and what's even worse is that it has become a requirement for the world to take you seriously. My grades are slipping somehow, even though I'm trying harder than ever. I think it's because I used to believe that getting a college education--and by college education I mean the education that I obtained from the content within college courses--would actually get me somewhere, but I'm finding out that I don't need it. I have the drive, and that's all that truly matters.
I'm depresed, but not because I have Depression. I'm depressed because I have everything that I've ever wanted except the money. Girls are so far off the spectrum it's not even funny. I get girls because I don't care about them, which is a sad truth. And it never used to be that way. Three years ago I found success by measure with women, but now it's financial gain--I did it backwards of every other top MPUA in The Game. So I don't "care" about women anymore. Not to mention this is a sh*tty time in my life to run game, just f*cking around wasting time.
I never understood why people don't like to talk numbers. I don't know whether it makes them uncomfortable, or maybe just that their parents told them not to talk about it, but I do because it makes everything seem that much more real. When I graduate, I'll be just shy of $70,000 in debt. If something doesn't change, I'll be on a 20 year plan, and I'll be damned if that happens to me. Right now, and I mean RIGHT NOW I have business ideas, and big ones at that. Some really cool sh*t. And, well...
I'd like to pursue that wholeheartedly, and until I meet recognizable financial success I probably won't be helping newbies anymore. I just don't have the time. Top 30, holla at me, because I consider you all friends, but I've got a new project that I want to tackle and I won't be coming back until I'm near the top.
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