Hey guys. I've seen a few of Cody's posts on here about him being in a rut mentally and how you all have come together and helped him out. I've tried to throw in some advice when I could. Well, it's my turn to talk about the place I'm in. And it's not too good, to be honest.
Tonight, I was excited to go out, just like any other night. So far this year I've had a perfect streak for going out. I've always ended up hooking up with a girl at some point. (Just some background, I'm in college and in a fraternity. I'm underage but bars are 19+ on my campus.) Anyways, I went to the house for a little pregaming before heading out. I was supposed to go out in a big group but most of the people flaked last minute so it ended up being just one guy and me going out. I honestly thought it would be better because we could just wing for each other the whole night. I don't think this guy really knows about PUA but he talks about getting girls all the time so I figured it would be a good night. Anyways, long story short, I tried setting him up in a few sets and he never really went with it. And he only opened two sets, both of them with someone he already knew. So it was kind of a bad night. I ended up with two n-closes but that was it. Normally with a n-close I also get a k-close at least, but something was off today and I don't know what. My game was tight, girls were enjoying talking with me, but it just wasn't happening for me. So there goes my perfect streak.
This isn't really what got me down though. The two numbers I got were from HB9s so I was happy with that. But there just wasn't any gratification from it. Normally when I get a number it just boosts my ego, I feel untouchable. Not tonight. I didn't feel any different. Then After the bars closed and when I was heading home, I called up my girl best friend on campus to see if she wanted to meet up (we dated at the beginning of the year and did sleep together so there were some strong feelings but we fell back into being just friends, and honestly I'm fine with it). She answers and tells me she's going over to a guy's place that she's been seeing. This is really what pushed me over the edge. As happy as I am being really close friends with her, I still have some strong feelings for her. And she started dating this guy two days after we ended things because she "didn't want anything serious." I tried to explain to her I didn't want that either but she wasn't listening. I don't want to be with her anymore, I don't have any desire of that. It just hurts that she's seeing him, ya know?
So to sum things up, I'm at the point where the girl I want is unattainable and I don't have any desire to really pursue it as well as I don't get any gratification from PU anymore. In the past year I've become basically addicted to it, thinking about how quick I could n-close, k-close, and f-close basically every girl I saw. I'm not afraid to approach any set, no matter what. I just don't get the same rush that I used to.
If anyone has any tips on how to solve this, please, send them my way. It would be greatly appreciated. I just want the same rush that I used to get whenever I was gaming an HB9 or HB10. I miss it, a lot.
Peace out everyone, hope you all had a better night than me.