heh, i was talking to a few members on here during my breakdown, basically I quit my job, found some other sources of income. Started dating a HB9 from a well-off family, got oneitis and then slept with a girl that wanted me really bad and then hated myself for it and decided I would no longer sleep with any women without a deep emotional connected and adopted a take it or leave it philosophy about myself.
Lots and lots of people still don't like me, I only have a few real friends and I don't go out on a limb to make more, but I'm cool with that. I'm super busy and enjoy my solitude and the new connections I make with people are genuine and much more fulfilling.
I don't go out randomly approaching girls anymore. I'm pretty picky. I can still seduce a woman and it bothers me little if she doesn't want me. There are still things I wish I could change about myself, mainly just being overweight but I honestly don't have time to work out yet, so I have been concentrating on my diet, which is something I can do. I've sobered up and rarely smoke weed or drink anymore (which was almost all I did to begin with), and don't suffer at the hands of my depression anymore. I'm more confident and a great conversationalist and have realized that my higher level of intelligence than most people is intimidating and annoying to a lot of people, but it is who I am, so my solution is to hang out with people of higher intelligence and only date smart girls.
I use PUA philosophy for self-improvement and emotional intelligence, as well as for leadership abilities when I am needed. I genuinely care about other people and choose to not use my powers of manipulation. I've been dating an 18 year old girl who has been through a lot, we really connect but I refuse to be in an exclusive relationship with her because she has dreams and ambitions and would only fall into a support role if I made her my girlfriend, even though she wants to be with me. I am using my pickup knowledge to help her deal with her deep-seated emotional issues and show her what a real man should treat her like and how to respect herself and think for herself.
These are POSITIVE things that can pickup can be used for. This girl routinely cries because some of the stuff I say and do for her affects her so profoundly, and honestly I'm pretty proud of the way I've handled the situation. I want every single girl I have any interaction with to feel better from having had that experience with me. This keeps relationships and sex in general from becoming boring and one-sided.
Don't make pickup who you are, but a part of who you are.
I feel pretty strongly on this subject.