Sup playas? It's been a while since I've posted anything and this is something I had to get off my mind. It's something I acknowledged and now am going to promptly fix.
Today marks the second year of my college experience and instead of exploring and socializing, I am on my dorm bed with my friends/roomies watching television. The life right?
I heard the saying that you are the sum of the 5 people you hang out with. My friends are not as enthusiastic about meeting new people and doing new uncomfortable things to grow, I on the other-hand love it.
I came in with the plan of being the "social guy," I imagined but from the first few hours see that it is not panning out as I had anticipated. The problem is I am permission seeking in a sense. I want my friends to do these things with me which clearly is not going to happen. I must do it alone. I must push myself.
I realize now that if I hang out with the same people who think the same this year as they did last year then I will follow suit. I don't have to necessarily drop my friends but I have to distance myself. Venture out alone and seek out the people and experiences I desire.
So the message of this somewhat convoluted post is that change won't happen if you continually hang out with people who don't want to change. Surround yourself with people who want to grow and will help you grow. And most importantly, don't depend on others to motivate you.
In the past hours I can't count how many times I have been told something I want to do is, "weird" or "stupid" and I felt myself reverting back to my old ways. But I am wiser now. I refuse to be the same as last year. Stagnancy is not an option. Life is too short to move back
I must be selfish. So to all new and aspiring "puas" don't worry about others, be selfish. If others don't want to grow with you then drop them. Since my friends clearly don't want to grow with me and prohibit me from being myself completely I must venture off by myself.
Questions I have is,
Should I tell my friends that I feel stagnant around them and I want to grow, OR should I just do my own thing?
I'm leaning towards the latter, but regardless I must be selfish and more independent. They are good friends but I want more. My personal happiness is more important than maintaining the current nature of our friendships. For me to change I have to surround myself with like minded individuals. Not necessarily ignore my friends but I must separate myself.
Hopefully this makes sense, I'll post more random musings as time goes by. Any advice on how I should go about my independence/ if any of you have gone through similar things would be greatly appreciated.