Allright, here we go for a rough ride. Because what I am about to say will stir up some emotions and will cause you and me a headache, I'm afraid.
Here's my story ...
I am 35 now and in a 15y relationship with a woman and we have two lovely kids. I met my wife when I was 20 and fell madly in love. I was, at that time, a totally inexperienced AFC, she was basically my first love. I had big glasses, bad hair cut and was behaving like a teenager. But I loved her, and we stayed together, I don't regret that.
Through the years, I changed and improved myself. I ditched the glasses for contacts, I gained a lot of self confidence, dressed really good, made some good money and got rid of excess hair :-) I became a mature and responsible guy, well-groomed, with good looks, an athletic body and a fun attitude. I don't consider myself to be a typical AFC, because I DO get a lot of female attention. Girls smile spontaneously at me, I can easy bond with then, I make instant friends and I hear a lot that I'm cute (or even hot).
It is only the last two years that I started to realized that I was learning, very slowly, the power of seduction, an art I never mastered (still do not master). I was no that AFC from 1997 anymore and I started to notice things. Then, I read THE GAME by Neil Strauss. I was fascinated by that book and started to try some tricks, very innocent. I immediately saw results. For example, only by improving my eye contact with girls I got woman looking at me or they started smiling. I learned about ioi's. I was flabbergasted when I tried some tricks on my neighbor (a pretty lady aged 38) and I saw her grab her hair the whole time, she looked away and smiled when I kept eye contact and leaned towards me. Holy Cr*p, all these signals were there before but I was unable to see them!
Now, here's where the headache starts. I feel bad for missing out a lot of fun and game when I was younger. Sometimes, I wish I could freeze time and allow myself one year of PUA-ing, but thatís not the way it works off course. I am pretty sure that if I start learning to become a PUA and give me a few months of hard training, I could become a relatively good PUA. But Ö I am married and you know what the real hard part is ... I love my wife, I really do.
More headache coming your way, since we have kids, our sexual life has nearly died. We talk a lot about that, she says she doesnít feel like sex anymore. She tries, she really does but she seems to have lost her sexual drive. Well, I have not, I can tell you. On the contrary. When I go out, even to fill up the car, I am a self confident, pretty guy that is not afraid of eye contact and woman notice me. A few time, I considered leaving my comfort sone and engage in conversation of go the Full Monty and start a routine or apply the basic things I know about PUA. But my rational brain stops me, because I am married, after all.
I love her, I really do, but there a pretty big part of me that wants to become a PUA.
Ok, Iím off that couch now, you can start shooting at me!