I am new to the PUA culture. however, I have somewhat explored the pandora's box 8 types of women material. And I also have almost the SAME exact problem as MPAGE1950.
The girl was a 22yr old HB9 and she is a hopeful romantic(NDI). I was aone day elder to her She was all over me. We were in touch almost like 24/7 for almost 2 years. It was the best time of my life. It was my first gf. and I was her 3rd bf. The 1st one was a 35yr old guy. 2nd was a 23 yr old.
In the last 6 months of these 2 years, I was not able to be with her all the time as we were in different time zones. and then all of a sudden she was going to get married to some other guy ditching me.
I got so insecure and I played a huge part in stopping the marriage anonymously, and she obviously knew it was me, and then was a phase of trauma for both of us fighting for the next 4 months on and off. There were short stints of good times in between , and I screwed it up royally, and now I know why she vanished and made it a short stint.
When I think back now, I feel ashamed that I should not have given up that huge amount of my self esteem.
Now its been two month since I spoke to her. We live 250 miles apart. And i am in the starting stage of my career.
I want her back. Waiting for her to call me one day sounds impossible. But, approaching her also seems to be a bad idea and I feel insecure that I might waste this huge period of anticiaption i created.
What say guys? I just want a decent once more chance, cos I understood a lot about women at present compared to the dumb guy I was.