I know that i don't come very often but now is different. i got in the game at the age of 16 now i am 18, back when i was 16 and before of course, I was an AFC. I always had a lot of friends but not a girlfriend. (thought i was no good looking enought) I got mad at my self so mad that i START READING BOOKS :P (i did not like to read books but i.found the game)
I WAS a Machine, now I ignored my aa and approach with in 3 seconds. I move at the age of 17 to NY.I am Dominican. i was nervous about the new girls here in America lol. but them realize i was easier because i read every book in English. i know what you may be thinking i am too young to be worried, but anyways i going to tell you what happened to me.(lol i should write a autobiographic.)
so I got back this last summer on vacation to DR blah blah blah
(not gonna to tell you about all my field experience during the summer but i going to tell you about this one).
IT was AUGUST 15 my last night out. I decided to go to a Steve Aoki concert with my friends and other people. on the Tour of my cousin.I am from Santiago City and the concert was in the capital 2 hours and a half away from santiago.
Sooooo when my friends and I got into the bus. I had a 3 targets that night. but god 1 of this targets was a not a 10.something that i NEver seen before, i got no numbers for her. for me she was perfect, beautiful face, black hair, and sexy body, besides she had a tongue piercing (which i find really hot :P).
(in DR when you are 18 u can do anything including drink)
Anyways I was like let's do this. everybody was drinking on that bus including me but i was no drunk, actually no body was drunk.....but i don't remember what was the first things that i told her which is confusing and blurry...... i remember from here she ask me about my career, i said laws (which is a lie. i just graduate). them she said are you serious? i said "no girl I just graduate"... hahahah ohh so what school did you graduate from,she asked me. " I moved to NY i said" them she said "ohhh so that's why I never seen you before. Anyways what career are you going to choose'' with a serious look in her face. so i said "LAWS" with a serious look in my face...she smiled at me and said
- Nice career. that's what i used to want.
me- seriously? what is your career.
- Criminal Psychology. (ohh I believe her because she raped my mind)
- what is your name? she asked me.
me- Rafael, what is yours?
the bus made a stop on a gift and food shop I went to the bathroom
i had to pee.......a friend of mine was by my side we were peeing together lol. them he said.
- You had change dude.
me - how is that ?
- You never talked to women.
me - hahahahah things are different now.
- be carefull with kenia.
me - why ?
- she has bad reputation.....and she is a hater.
me -don't worry about me. i can handle that.
- she is going to reject you
me- well that is up to her (smile).
everybody got into the bus. i decide to trow her some negs since my friend told me that she is a hater. when a girl is a hater i like to this to show her that i dont feel intimidated by her. or to make it seem i am not interested.
me - you are fat (it was funny because she was not fat at all)
Kenia- hahhaaha how dare u, i am not fat...
me- of course you are (slaping her belly :P)
Kenia - hahahah stop. you are so mean to me. i am not fat. (smiling)
me- don't worry you still hot. hot but fat.
Kenia- hahahahha (saw her tongue piercing)
me - no way! do you have a tongue piercing? sho me your tongue.
Kenia- Yeahh......:P.....yo u like it?
me - i want one!
them we started talking about piercings. I was feeling the vibe.and she was feeling it too!
them my cousing put a song that i love.notice we still on the bus!
me- omg I love that song. (third party vs cicada- feel....u guys should hear it)
Kenia- wooow are you serious I love it too that song gets me high.
me-No way my favorite.
everybody was watching us...
me- Are you going VIP OR GENERAL?
me - psssss u are so poor.
Kenia- hahahah what about you?
Kenia- so we are going to be together!
me- yeah hi5 (kino just started)
lets skip a little bit....
WE got there at the concert.there were a lot of people in the doors.
Kenia- Rafy hold my wrist. so we can get inside
me- Fark somebody stole my wallet!
Kenia-what... don't worry
me- what? somebody stole my farking wallet. i need my money.
Kenia - don't worry I going to buy you drinks!
me- well. ok.
them she dissapear. i was no really worry about my wallet.
(it was not her just in case.)
them i started dancing with another chick from the tour .since she dissapear i tried to reach my cellphone on my front pocket.
me- Fark somebody stole my cellphone.
chick- what. heheheheh them you are screw3d.
me - whatever!
so i started looking for kenia. I saw her dancing with another dude. taller a better looking than me.i walked towards her.
me- somebody stole my cellphone can you believe it?
kenia-uihh don't tell me that. i am sorry
me- there is nothing we can do about my cellphone.or my wallet. do you have a ciggarette. ( i dont smoke. i have asthma but she was smoking a lot so i did not want her to get a cancer.)
kenia- this is my last 1 we can share it if you want?
3 minutes later
me - do you want me to lift you by shoulders?
kenia- sure but you can't i am to heavy (she was still dancing with the guy, and I wanted to get rid of him)
me - them why dont you lift me?
kenya- i can do that (she stoped dancing with the guy hah)
me - horseback i dont want to hurt you!
she was about to fall so I told her to stop.
me - you know what give a me a chance to lift you by my shoulders. because you are going to break your back.
me- Open you legs ( while i was standing behind her)
I lift her by my shoulders.while she was there she started to touching my hair. and my face she put her finger inside my mouth.
i lifted her for 3 full 7 minutes songs.i needed to drink water... i am skinny but i swimm. that is why i have stamina "you surprised me, you are stronger than you look'' she said after i put her down.
me- i need water.
kenia- heree, you deserve some water ( she gave me some money)
i went to drink water, and them I was thinkin " god now is when i going to make my move with her''....but them the same guy that i got rid of, was there again dancing and with her.I just wanted to beat him up like he were a Nazi. but i decide to solve this as a PUA. I had 2 options walk away. or get Rid of him again. bersides its up to her.
i walk back in again . i could see that somehow she was not enjoyng
the dance. with that creepy better looking than me guy! suddenly Aoki started trowing cake to the public. and 1 piece of cake hit me on my chest. i saw kenia laughting about that while she was dancing with the guy. them i walk up to her with my hands full of cake:P . them i cover her face with a little bit of cake, the she was holding my hands trying to cover mine face.
me- Are you trying to cover my face of cake. with my own hands?
Kenia- I can't you are stronger than you look.
me - hahahaha.dude get some napkins.
creepy guy - what?
me- get some napkins for her.
creepy guy - I got you bro! (suckeeeer!)
he went away, and I clean her face with my own hands and some water.
me - open your legs .
I lift her again by my shoulders. i could not take it anymore after a single song I put her down in a way that i was behind her.as soon as I put her down i started dancing with her."
DANGER! what you are going to read from here is a very deep Kino Escalation.
we were dancing like we were having hehehe you know. she kissed my cheek. we were holding hands while dancing.she was a little taller than my so she moved down and a little out, wich it was hot!
them i had my hands holding her belt. aoki change the music now it was kinda of dubstep.
Kenia- i dont know how to dance that, teach me.
me- you are doing great .
i kissed her neck, we were getting too deep, she made me feel present to that moment and focus. people made a little circle just for me and her.suddenly she grabbed both of my hands. she dragged both of my hands to her chest.
me- I think u are the one who is teaching me how to dance.
i slowy put one of my hand holding one of her hands, them the other one holding her belt. because i did not wanted her to think that i was needy.while dancing I looked at her in the eye. we were about to make out, her nose was touching mine. but them I dont know why,i turned away, i kept dancing with her and i grabbed one of her hands, and the other one I put it on her on her chest again. we dance like 4 full songs. the creepy guy had dissapear.
them the concert was over i hold her hand and say.
me- let's go to he bus (hoping we could make out there)
you won't believe me what happened next.the creepy guy walked towards us with a bunch of kidnapps. she dropped my hand
and put hers inside her back pocket. i did not wanted to deal with the same guy again so i walked away. and made my way to the bus alone.............i was in schoked. when were in the bus i did not say a word to her. neither did her.well she did not say anything about the concert again. she just laught when i said let's go to the after party(yeah right at 7 30 am). them nothing much happened. she said bye I said ok.
ohh by the way I had my after party. with my bed sleeping I got home at 8:15 am .them when i woke up i thought about everything, I thought about her a lottt . ''farkk I should have kissed her. instead of turn back now i cant do nothing because i get back to NY tomorow'' this were my thoughtts, this was my last aproach.now i feel so so bitter. depressed and traumatized. its been a week now
and I only think about her. that was the last time made i an aproach . now i just think about her everytime. every minute of the days. the only think that i do in my pc now is see pictures of her in facebook ( who's the creeper now).... i dont have this sensation of bitterness,sadnes, depretion since i was 16. i need help now.i am desperate, i need an advice, to get rid of this depression, to get her out of my mine. i cant do nothing about her now she is in DR and i am here in NY, please help me before i do something stupid!!
(just in case i don't use any type of drugs, and i am not planning to kill my self. so far) I just need an advice to be me again! please help me i cant even get no sleep since monday.hope you guys UNderstand.
by the way she is 20.
if anytime I said ''grabe'' i meant to say ''grab" sorry