I came onto these forums because ever since my first girlfriend, which I dated for two years, broke up with me in April, I've been very sad and it changed my outlook on relationships.
When I was dating her, I never wanted it to end, I only wanted her forever and only her. Now I get angry thinking about her and how she threw me away like garbage and I never want to think like that again. I don't want ridiculously long-lasting relationships. I want to have girlfriends that I date for a maximum of three months or so, and when I'm older in college and beyond, decrease that length. My ex changed everything I want in a relationship.
I've tried to get new a girlfriend ever since then and it hasn't worked out. Girls that are, in my opinion, out of my league of course didn't work. Two girls that are a little above my league didn't work, even though one made out with me one day and the next week stopped liking me, then finally one girl that was in my league could have happened but as she goes to a different school, I started thinking I wanted to date someone from mine.
I jokingly say I have the [my last name] Curse because I just can't seem to get a girl.
I have Approach Anxiety to girls that I've never talked to or have barely talked to because of the simple fact that I haven't talked to them that much, so they are probably wondering why someone like me is talking to them. That's how I see it. I have very bad anxiety disorder when I actually start to like a girl and we see each other, I freeze up and have nothing to talk about and that's what probably ruined me with one of the girls that was out of my league.
I came to these forums to change all of this. I would even greatly appreciate being able to actually go up to a girl that I don't really know and get her number. I would love to be able to see them in person and actually be able to talk. The hot girl I mentioned earlier didn't order anything at the restaurant when we went with our church and it literally took EVERYTHING I had to say "You didn't order anything Kalyn?". I hate it so much. But as of this moment, since I'm not chasing her, if I see her at school I probably wouldn't have a problem talking to her. It's only when I'm chasing a girl or crushing on a girl that I have this huge problem.
But as I said, I hope these forums help me be able to become friends with cute girls, be able to continually talk to them in person, and eventually once I feel comfortable with the previous goals, start asking girls out and having a great time. I can tell these forums are soon going to change my life and I thank you all beforehand.