Hey there everyone I just wanted to say that I am new to this site and the game.
I am almost a 24 year old virgin from Toronto and I don't have much experience with women. Anyways, I play a game called World of Warcraft. Long story short I liked a woman on there. We texted all the time and I thought began to have feelings for her which is ridiculous but anyways. So I find out that she has been playing me for a chump. The sad part is that she lives in San Fransisco.
At first I was angry and I'll be honest with you, I was hurt. But after a while of just sitting there the anger turned inwards. Questions began to flood my head. It was almost like there was a voice inside me that was just 100 percent fed up. That voice started throwing questions that I didn't really expect.
"How the hell are you letting a chick how many miles away play you like that?"
"What is wrong with you that you can't go out and actually have sex for once? It's not rocket science"
"Why are you still a virgin? You've already ruled it out as a social construction"
"Do you want to be a lonely chump for the rest of your life?"
and many more
So now I am sitting here and I honestly wanting to change. I am so very desperate to change. This whole aspect of my life is so honestly depressing that sometimes I don't want to get out of bed in the morning. I just started my first year at York University in Toronto. My brothers said that it is like shooting fish in a barrel in University.
I listened to The Game and it was interesting and insightful. This is the part where I would describe what I look like. But after listening to the book I realize that looks isn't a huge component to the formula. That being said, I dress well. I am well groomed and I am tall. (If any of that matters) I feel like I should work on myself before I really try out at the game. (I mean this in terms of Inner game)
But I just want to say that I am checking my pride at the door. I really and honestly want help. I don't want to feel this lost, crappy and heartbroken as long as I can avoid it.