I never thought that I had a problem. Even though I was a loser in high school, I always thought that college will change everything. So I didn't worry much.
On some level, I was correct. College DID change a lot. I became more confident, more secure, more intelligent. But when it came to women...I remained a loser.
I'm 21, and my high score is 0.75. I limped to third base with the only girlfriend I ever had, but failed to seal the deal. She dumped me afterward. But that wasn't the turning point for me. I was still in denial that I had a problem with women...I blamed it mostly on her. The defining moment came during this summer while I was taking summer courses. A drunk HB9 brought me into her dark room one Friday night with the intention of having sex with me. Even though she wrapped her arm around my waist, I knew she was too shy to follow through with her plan, so she waited for me to make the next move.
I froze. My inexperience with women, combined with not carrying protection, completely shellshocked me. I didn't know what to do and the thoughts of whether or not this would be taking advantage of her were racing through my mind. I was still pretty much "a nice guy" after all and my naive morality didn't do me any good. So what did I do? I made some sh1tty joke and retreated. It was embarrassing.
So I decided that never again. I only just recently stumbled upon Neil Strauss' The Game, which I am still reading. So this whole PUA thing is very new to me, but I'm picking up things quick. But the important thing is, I finally realized that I really suck with women, and that is unacceptable. Especially with the fact that I'm a good looking guy and in great shape who SHOULD be great with women but isn't. So I decided that it's time to change, create my own destiny, as I like to say. I'm looking forward to reading more material and meeting new people on this forum, and hopefully even go out sarging as soon as I'm able to.
I'm Fu$10N (or Fusion) and I'm college kid in Philly studying physics (hence the name).