Hey yall, Willmatic here. Just signed up and thought I would tell you a little about myself and my current situation. I am very shy guy and I had most of my relationships online behind a computer because it was easy and convenient. I am not a bad looking guy, but I thought it to be to troublesome to go out and meet women when I can just sit at home and meet some over the internet. Though it sounds ridiculous, I had just got out of a long term relationship with a woman from Australia whom I never met, which I had gained feelings for over the course of 5 months.
My friends say I'm crazy for even doing it, but I was in love with something I have never even touched. In the end I had gained nothing but a broken heart and I can still feel the pain as I know she has moved on with another online relationship. My close real life friend hooked me up with a female he knew in college, and so far that is going well as I am in the perfect zone of showing her that I am not needy, but her time with me is definitely not wasted when we do spend it together. I do feel that online relationships have made me able to better communicate with women, but to approach and show them that I am who I am is another beast of its own when I think about it. I have had some real relationships years back, where I learned when a woman stopped caring, and when things were irreparable. That hint right there tells the tale of how I can hook a woman with my confidence, but as time goes on, I put all my dreams and hopes in the first basket that is available to me, which ultimately makes them in control of me as I try to make them happy and give them what they want. I love too easily, and I always lose sight of what qualities I once had when I pulled them to me. I change, and I become a product of the relationship, not maintaining the product that got me the gig, which was being me at my best.
I want variety, I want choices, I want to feel a warm body next to me when I wake up. I want to know that when I do choose to settle down, I have the right woman for me. The most painful lesson I have learned when it comes to women, is that you can create the most beautiful image of a mediocre one, but the reality of it, is that you are only hurting and lying to yourself when the canvas melts and their true nature appears.
I want to be proactive with my love life, not reactive.