I'm a very inexperienced 28 year old guy from Toronto, Canada who's terrified of women. I have a friend who goes out and has casual sex almost once a week, and I envy him so much. For me, that is just a dream, a fantasy.
My biggest problem:
I must give off some awkward vibe when I meet pretty girl because whenever I see them again a second time, they always avoid eye contact with me every day from then on.
My sad short list of experiences with women so far:
I've only had one girlfriend, which was when I was 16. The only reason that happened was because she told me she liked me on MSN. We broke up soon after because I was too shy to ever make any moves, and we never even kissed.
I lost my virginity at a party in college I remember absolutely nothing about.
My first taste of acceptance
Last month, fed up after 28 years of being a coward, I finally randomly talked to a classy girl (HB8) sitting next to me at the food court, even though it scared me sh1tless, and somehow I stumbled through the conversation and asked her out... and she said yes.
We talked for a bit, but then I didn't make any moves. I didn't know what to do. We both left, and that night she told me she can't make it to the date.
I was crushed, but I had got my first taste of acceptance by women, and now I feel like.. maybe it's not impossible.
I want to change. I'm not hideous looking. I'm dark-skinned but I don't think that matters in this world anymore.
I want to be able to pick up women.. in the daytime, or at clubs (I don't go clubbing but maybe I should).
I want to have more than just the four introverted loser friends I have right now.
Basically, I want to get a life. Can you help me?