So long story short, I have always had problems in social interactions. I was introduced to the game and started reading things about a year ago. But being extremely nervous and scared to actually try anything out, I was struck with analysis paralysis and pretty much didn't do anything except perhaps improve my conversation skills with my very few friends at a snail's pace.
However, something changed in me during the break. I hung out with some really close friends on New Year's Eve and went around downtown saying happy new years to everyone and just being very open and having a really good time. It was a huge boost to my confidence. As soon as we parted and I was heading home by myself, I saw a group of three girls and opened them without any hesitation. My conversation skills are still terrible so it didn't get too far before it died out. But this was something I have never done before and could only dream about. It was truly refreshing and I was insanely happy.
Coming back to school, I finally feel like I belong on this campus. I still need to make some more friends, but I could feel a true change has occurred in me - I feel reborn. I finally feel like I could start practising the material I've read about. I will start with conversation and basic Kino.
It's going to be a good year!