I met a beautiful Polish woman out of the blue online at the beginning of November 2016. We kept our conversations short and sweet prior to meeting and I went into our first date confident and well-groomed. Not long into the date I was feeling very good about the progress, she looked breath-taking and soon I planted my eyes on her and we kissed with such true passion it practically blew me away.
We saw each other a lot over a month's time and as stated in the title, I let my emotions get the best of me. I spent too much time without giving her space, said some things that you really don't state in the first month and sometimes let an insecure side show after she told me about a guy or two that expressed interest in her (and she claimed she had no interest in them).
The final time I saw her was around mid December 2016. After seeing her 3 out of 4 days between Friday and Monday I spoke with her by text that Wednesday. She was getting her furnace replaced that Thursday and told me Wednesday she got little rest the night before because it went out again. I offered to come down and keep her warm Wednesday night and she told me ok but she would be home late around 7pm. I felt all was ok until I arrived. She was distant, a hair cold and maybe 15 minutes after walking in to her place she asked if I would be taking my weights (dumbbells) home the next day (her son was coming home from Europe in a few days and I figured she was asking this in case I wanted to use them since we would not see each other much while he was home). I stayed with her that night, we woke up together, I got ready for work, took my weights, hugged her and told her I would text her later. She said ok.
We texted a few times over the next two days. I was trying to give a little more space then the next Sunday she texted me stating she did not want to pursue the relationship further. I replied to her text asking her why she was doing this and she just stated there are a number of items about me that bother her, but would not state specifics. I continued to text her more that day (big mistake) trying to get her to talk to me more or even have a phone call but she then blocked me on her phone and Facebook.
Since then I have cried a bit and felt little desire to do much. Her and I did so many things together in that first month (a road trip, solid sex, workouts, good conversations, etc) and I told a friend I had not felt like this in over 10 years.
I decided it would be helpful to see a therapist to help me get on track and so far have had one session. I also went on one date with a new girl on New Year's Eve (my ex was back online 5 days after the split). The date was good and I don't regret taking it. Had I not gone on it I felt I would have been in absolute misery that night and weekend. I also am reading a book from Corey Wayne called 'How To Be A 3% Man' that is helping me realize what I did wrong in this last situation and will hopefully improve things going forward.
To conclude, a part of me would love to get a text sooner or later from me ex but I know the chances are slim.
My questions are: has anyone been through a similar scenario where they let their emotions get the best of them instead of stepping back and letting her chase you? Also has anyone ever been able to get their ex back that has been through a very similar situation?