Reclaiming my not giving a sh1t me

Hey how you going,

So Ive just drop kicked a former model out of my life. 4 months of lying and a total of two years of being unhappy, I just cant deal with her anymore, not even as a fark buddy which i did consider.

Prior to meeting her i did not give a sh1t. i was in the moment, i was alive, i was a whole being and had total awareness. i was also picking up girls left right and centre. I miss that guy. 2 years later, Im nice, gentle and feel like i have ocd.

So Ive joined looking for tips to get back to the real me - not really to pick up, just to get the raw me back. Im reading a lot (mystery method, the game, how to win friends, 48 laws of power). Im getting up at 6am and doing press ups, sit ups, and im playing soccer twice a week. i intend to start boxing next week.

So, Ive made a start, but I want suggestions. I want real unshakeable confidence, not with the purpose of picking up but just in general. Im too sensitive, I want to stop giving a sh1t again.

Thanks, and nice to meet you all!

I hear ya rob.......I'm in about the same boat lol. When I first moved to the city I was pretty rough around the edges. I'd show up to a party where the girls were dressed to the 9s and id walk in wearing a 'Jack coat and carrying a case of homebrew. A few years in the city and I softened up started being too nice for my liking and dressing to styles. Well I'm glad to say I've managed to get my attitude back, i've been hitting the gym and overall feeling the best I have about myself in the last 4 years. Hope it works out for you too.