Hey how you going,
So Ive just drop kicked a former model out of my life. 4 months of lying and a total of two years of being unhappy, I just cant deal with her anymore, not even as a fuck buddy which i did consider.
Prior to meeting her i did not give a shit. i was in the moment, i was alive, i was a whole being and had total awareness. i was also picking up girls left right and centre. I miss that guy. 2 years later, Im nice, gentle and feel like i have ocd.
So Ive joined looking for tips to get back to the real me - not really to pick up, just to get the raw me back. Im reading a lot (mystery method, the game, how to win friends, 48 laws of power). Im getting up at 6am and doing press ups, sit ups, and im playing soccer twice a week. i intend to start boxing next week.
So, Ive made a start, but I want suggestions. I want real unshakeable confidence, not with the purpose of picking up but just in general. Im too sensitive, I want to stop giving a shit again.
Thanks, and nice to meet you all!