Well this isn't the movies, and I'm pretty much at my wits end, depressed, even occasional thoughts of suicide. I probably have social anxiety and aspergers. I am in the computer/engineering field. The depression caused me to lose my job and I work from home living in my parents house. People deprived of affection suffer in other aspects of their life.
Sad part about this is I look perfectly normal and women wonder why I'm single! I live next door to a married woman and she said you wouldn't be single if I was not married.
I had some women that I kissed and made out with and they thought my looks were above average to attractive. I think this is bullsh1t because women never approach me in public. If men look a certain way they have to beat women off with a stick!
I noticed that when I'm around women I stand with my hands folded up, like an anxiety takes me over.
I don't really get out much, I've always hid behind a computer. I fear rejection. At this point I fear I will be inadequate if I ever have sex with a woman.
I'm thin, boyish looking,blonde/blue work out occasionally but I get zero traction with women. One issue is when I did meet a women, I ended up kissing her ass to the point that I became her doormat. I fixed her car, did $1000s of repairs to her house. You can guess how that ended up.
Sometimes I have thought of turning gay, not so much for the sex but just for human companionship that I crave so much.