Hi guys, I'm new to this forum and wanted to see what you think of the situation I'm currently in.
This all started around october last year, i was at a friend's party and I'm suddenly shocked by seeing a stunning blonde i have seen before but didn't remember where, after like 20 mins i remembered, she was on my graduation party and was the cousin of a classmate, anyways with that on my mind i go up and talk to her, we got along great, i mean she was hugging me for most of the night, and she asked me for my phone number, she gave me hers, we had a blast, we ended up swimming at 4am in a lake nearby, walked her home and she gave me a towel and told me i could sleep in the couch if i wanted, but my house was nearby so i went home (she had 2 roommates, and i didn't want them to freak out waking up and seeing a guy they've never seen before sleeping in their sofa. Anyways we went out on a few dates, everything went more than wonderful, we texted a lot, and one day we got a bit drunk, and we were talking about how we felt, i was going to go in for a kiss, but she stopped me and told me she hasn't been completely truthful with me, she told me that she has a boyfriend, of many years but he was moving to australia to study for a year, and they are trying to make it work as a long distance relationship, and i told her, that she couldn't deny what she felt for me, and she told me that its true, but until he leaves to australia( in like a month) nothing could happen between us, so i kept that on my mind and the day after he left i asked her if she remembered what we talked about that night and she told me yes, but she was drunk and she likes me a lot, more than i can imagine, but she's already in a relationship, and she can't do it because she would like to think that his bf wouldn't do that to her, so i started writing her less, and when i was starting to forget her i bump into her at a party and all those feeling came back for both of us, we talked for hours and still nothing happened, so i decided to give it my best try and set up this date that was more like a whole day event, she came to my place at around 10 am and left a bit after 11pm, i made her favorite dish( i asked her sister) we watched friends(her fav show) for a few hours in my bed hugging, i made chocolate ice cream(also her fav)( yes, made it at home, not bought) and all this cooking was done in front of her, we opened some wine, shared a few laughs talked, and to top all this i had taken the table to my roof, and had candles and the view couldn't have been better, it was on a third floor, on a house on top of a hill, you could see the whole city. And when she was leaving she told me, nick i really loved this evening with you, many girls spend a lifetime and never get a date as good as this one, if i weren't in a relationship you would see how grateful i am, but i am in a relationship and you know that, so all i can do is this, and kissed me on the cheek. and then left.
At that moment i decided to quit on her, i mean if after all that i only got a kiss on the cheek then its never going to happen, right? ... so i started dating again, i met this cute girl from the states, it was a few nights thing, i also met this other girl from colombia who went crazy about me because she said she has never been with a rockstar before( i met her at i gig i was doing and my ego gives her the idea I'm a rockstar hahaha) but i didn't find any of those girls satisfying for gf material, i mean they are stupidly hot, both 10s, but i feel theres nothing more in there than lust, i don't love them... but the thing is, i was already over this girl, but we were still friends and hung out at the same parties and all, and like 2 weeks ago at this party, she grabs me and tells me she broke up with his bf, and we talked about that a while and then she got too drunk so i called her roommate so she could take her home, i wasn't going to try anything funny because first of all she's my friend and i respect her too much to take advantage of the fact she had a broken heart and was wasted, besides i thought i was over her. But the next day i wake up and realized what this meant, it meant i had another chance with her, and next week we all go out to a disco and i took as a date my colombian girl who was crazy about me, and she saw that, i couldn't get her off me, and when she left, i turn around and see the girl from the states and we danced and everything and i believe the girl I'm in love with saw that too and got jealous because she started writing to me more than usual, we went out on a date, i kept it casual, i told her if she wanted to have dinner with me because i haven't gone to the supermarket so i had to go eat at a restaurant that night, and i didn't want to ask for a table for 1 ... and she said yes right away., we talked and she started asking about my colombian friend, and i told her i wasn't sure, i was probably going to end it, because all i felt with her was lust, and i didn't want to have a trophy gf, i wanted someone i could share a meal with, someone i could talk to about anything, someone i could just stare at the stars with, someone smart, who can make me laugh, someone i could just sit with for hours and not have to say anything because our eyes are already doing all the talking, someone more like her, her cheeks turned red and she told me, oh you are a sweet guy I'm sure that you'll find a girl like that, i promise. then we talked about other stuff.
The problem i now have is that on the same day she told me she broke up with his ex, she met a guy( who already has a gf on a long distance relationship for a few years, but they live like 5 hours apart on car and 30 mins by plane, so they see each other frequently) the thing is this guy has started hanging out a lot with her, and he gets so drunk he literally just stops holding her to lift his drink, pee and puke, and a few days ago he went to her place to watch a tv series, don't know if anything happened but this girl tells me that they are just good friends she knows he has a gf and he loves her a lot, so they are just friend, but I'm afraid she says that but really starts falling for this guy and i end up screwed. She's been texting me less lately.
What should i do?
Thanks in advance!