(first post here)
I've been seeing this girl for about 5 Months now and we have gotten really close. On the first night we met, We hooked up, and there was a lot of passion involved. This Girl is an Athlete and an Artist and I am the same. Part of this is why we get along so well. She is a little bit taller than me, but I am bulkier and more muscular.
We have had Extreme ups and downs. She is afraid of commitment, but clearly wants to be with me. Sometimes I get the LJBF talk, but then another night she will get extremely hot for me and then have sex. Once She has sex with me she gets cute and clingy to me, which I enjoy. Sometimes the Morning or day after she will be cold to me though.. She described it as When I am laying in bed with you right now I just feel "alpha" I just dont physically want you. While other times she obviously does, I make her cum and sometimes turn her on. I'm trying to keep that spark going that makes her feel hot, and WANT to be with me all the time on a physical level. We have only had sex a handful of times, but each was it's own amazing experience.
She used to text me every day when she was out of town. I hadn't asked her out yet (which she later declined, but our relationship persisted). Much of the talk was Funny, and kinky too. I am hoping she can feel free to do that again, because she is not feeling it obviously. I don't want to text her first, but I want her to come on to me.
She said she was bothered by me being emotional about random things. and Just wished I was uppy like when we hang out as "just friends". She wants me, and my love, but doesnt want to commit, or break my heart. She genuinely thinks she hasnt met anyone like me and doesn't think she ever will, and her girlfriends (teammates) say that she talks about me and those things.
It seems like the relationship is heading towards friends, but She is looking for reasons to change that.
If there is anything I can do to help lemme know, or anything else you guys need to help.