Re: She asks "do I mean something to you?"
Honesty is the best policy man. Just be open. If she doesn't accept the frame, that's ok, you guys had to move on sooner or later, if she does accept it, you're going to keep a friend and sooner or later you'll still have to move on. Lying or hiding your intentions aren't healthy for anyone, nor is it alpha. Very low status, so just be honest with your feelings homie.
Caveat: Just because I feel a certain way about my journey doesn't mean you should feel the same about yours.
If you can't say that you would rather die than not do it; you don't want it bad enough.