ok, so this is a little strange for me. i planned a trip for this coming weekend back in like april with my ex. is a city here in colombia i've wanted to visit for a while, got a great deal on the flight (like 40 bucks round trip) and also got a groupon for a like honeymoon suite with champagne, rose petals, chocholate strawberries, breakfast in bed the works for like 100 bucks.
ex broke it off with me due to the fact that she actually has had some long distance relationship the whole time....wanted me back, ended it with the guy after several weeks of indecision, then ended it with me a few days later (she doesn't know what she wants, think she's probably still wanting to be with the other guy)
anyway saturday i went and hung out with this other girl. now i also ran into my ex on the street out at like 2:45 in the morning. really affected me, im not over her and the emotional roller coaster I love you and want to be with only you and fix everything and make everything better only to drop that she didnt feel the connection after 4 days ride she took me on. in fact this whole trip is something i should have still been excited about, but haven't been, thinking about her.
well saturday i took the other girl home but couldnt go through with the full f close, the ex had texted me saying nice to see you (which I didnt respond to the next day). but i did decide with this other girl to go on the trip as friends. she's going to pay to change the name on the ticket and the first two nights she's going to probably stay with some friends she knows there, I'm sure we'll hang out but its not like I'm going to be treating her all weekend. and we decided to do the hotel thing, its money long gone for me.
I'm a little concerned about my own emotional state and Mindset though. I mean saturday I should have been happy as heck, I with almost no effort brought a girl home (i dont think she's even close to hotness as my ex, but she's not a bad looking girl and is pretty cool). should have been my rebound but was taken for a loop by the whole seeing the ex thing and the text (she's now blocked me on whatsapp before I had even responded)
man a whirlwind, started a new job this week too, im vacilitating between wanting to hate my ex, to wanting her back, to wanting to make her jealous, to hoping she comes running back to me. I guess I'm just looking for thoughts, words of wisdom to enjoy this weekend.
sorry i know that was long, damn women man.