So I've been dating this girl for over a year now, and things have been going great. However recently, I had to move cross country, from India to the UK, and things have become slightly more difficult to handle. We do tend to get a little insecure, but have a crazy attachment and connection. I surprised her recently, by making a short trip, to come over and see her.
The first two days were amazing, but on the third day, in the midst of amazing sex, I was teaching her some moves, and she asked me how I knew so much. Without thinking, I admitted to having done it with my ex. Now, while she does know that I had gotten physical with my ex, I must admit that I hadn't ever been completely honest about the extent.
This is mainly because my current girlfriend, hails from a traditional family, and I'm the first guy she's ever gotten physical with. So, after revealing my sexual past in the spur of the moment, I noticed a sudden change in her demeanour. To make amends, I told her that I was just kidding, and swore that my past was clean.
While she says that none of this is playing on her mind, I can't help but feel that things have been different since. I am in a bit of a fix. If I tell her the facts about my past, I will come across as an idiot. At the same time, the guilt of lying is consuming me, and I think she sees right through me. I am not being the same around her, and she is finding it unattractive. It is causing friction in the relationship. I am obsessing over this topic, and constantly wondering, what she must be thinking about, while with her!!