Complete sh1t show situation, just need to get it off my plate
Disclaimer: this post will mention cheating, in pretty awful ways. Oh and it's way too long.
Where to start?
I have a roommate, who also happens to be my best friend. I actually taught him the Game, and he does pretty good now. I have a girlfriend already, so usually I just play the Game by being a wingman for him.
We're both part of a conversation group which is now up to 90% of our social life and friends (which is bad, but that's another topic). It's mostly exchange students, so we get new people regularly.
My roommate met a girl there that he liked, so again, I started to wingman for him. She got a boyfriend, but is not really into him. I hung out with the girl, kept talking about how doing new stuff was awesome, how she should enjoy life, take advantage of her trip here to try new things, talking about sex, and so on. Since I got a girlfriend that most people know, I got huge deniability to do this kind of things.
I spent an afternoon like this, teasing and all, and I delivered her to him, horny and adventurous. They hooked up, and it went well enough that since then they've been kind of dating.
Then everything was fine, but recently while chatting with her and mentioning how cute they were together, she started telling me that she actually wanted out, but she didn't know how to. Since the roommate was out for the week (he travels a lot) I did again my wingman routine, trying to put her back with him, flirting with her for him, aaaaand... we farked.
tl;dr I cheated on my GF with my best friend's FWB (who got a BF too).
And we didn't do it just that one time. We did it again the next day, and the day after, and twice the day after that, and basically spent a whole week naked in bed, barely getting out. And it was not just sex, we started talking about how we liked each other, we started holding hands when nobody was watching, kissing in the streets, touching feet under the table, and so on. And seriously, it was awesome. Some of the best sex of my life, super romantic moments, smiling every time I got a text from her, incredibly happy time.
By then, the roommate had heard about how she was telling a lot of people she wasn't happy with him, he confronted her, she finally said the truth, and they broke up. He went all asshole-y on her, saying he hated her, she was the worst person he had met, he never wanted to see her again, he forbid her to come to any of our parties, and so on.
A couple of weird days followed, I saw her a bit but we didn't do anything until things got better, and then suddenly: no more contact. Texts left unanswered for 24h, which was highly unusual. And I got back home to find my roommate all happy and smiling, the girl behind him in his room, and telling me they're back together. All great, everyone is happy.
Except I can't stop thinking about her.
It's terrible, seriously. I check my phone every 5mn hoping she will text. Until now I managed not to send texts and texts and texts, because it's not my first oneitis, but I keep writing them in my head and having long imaginary conversations with her. Yes, it's that bad.
And I know that they are lying together right behind my room's wall, and it's killing me. I see them holding hands in the street, kissing, always cuddling each other, and I can't say shit and it's killing me. I kinda agree that it's totally karma, and maybe I deserve it, but damn, it's seriously driving me crazy.
The worse is how she switched from "I like you so much NT you are the best man I ever met" to straight ignore. That's the kind of shit I want to send dozens of texts about and post vague passive-agressive Facebook status about.
Anyway, that's the end of my story - at least for now. No need for advice, I'm already pretty familiar with what to do now - freeze her out, switch to other girls, and so on. But I really needed to get it out, and for some obvious reasons I can't talk to anyone who knows my roommate, his girlfriend, or my girlfriend, which left me with nobody to vent to. Thanks for reading, if anyone did.
tl;dr I got one-itis on my best friend's FWB I cheated on my own girlfriend with, and it sucks balls.
May the Game be with you
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