I don't really want to go into full detail but my mind is a bit confused. Either I'm over thinking this or it's just how she is.
This is what I noticed:
-She initiated the first kiss.
-She told me she is a confusing person and it's hard for her to like someone.
-When I asked her what WE are she said "I guess we're dating"
(I straight up told her... are we just friends or... something more?)
-She gets all warm and cuddly next to me.
-We've been out passed midnight many times.
-She honestly initiates a lot of the physical contact between us.
-She initiated this other "special" kiss which was kind of making out but it wasn't for very long... but still.
Most of our nights involve cuddling somewhere outside and just enjoying our company. We get real close and get real comfortable with each other. Like whenever she holds my hand when we drive around it's usually right in between her thighs. We;re just really comfortable with each other.
I've never been in a relationship and she hasn't either but I feel like I'm putting more effort than she is. At the same time though I feel that the technology is the cause of my over thinking and confusion. She takes a long time to reply to a text or she doesn't even reply.
In person it feels like a relationship but when we're not together it feels like... nothing at all.
I told her my feelings a couple times and she always replies with... "I like hanging/going out with you too." She never said she "Likes me"
After that I just decided to go slow and go with the flow. She's a different girl from the rest around my area. She's into smarter people and I need to get my shit together because I actually really care for her.
I honestly feel like I'm going to lose her. There was one time where I straight up told her to text me whenever she wants to hang out. She didn't text me until 2 weeks later asking how I've been and saying we should hang out. I realized that she did miss me, but still.
Should I start initiating the physical contact a lot more often?
She doesn't really express her feelings with words... more so... physical.
I feel like she doesn't trust me too. Well she did say she doesn't trust me one time... but not sure if it was sarcastic or not. She actually looked through my phone and I saw that she was looking at my texts. Also we don't text that much either. Mostly about plans and that's it.
Not sure how to handle this lol.