lol your all gonna kill me for this - please dont lol...
ok so i went round there, and told her what i knew etc - and said i think its discusting - and told her that she has actually cheated on me.
anyway we had a looonnnggg loonnnng talk about not only this but the whole relationship...
may i just add as well - she has never opened up to me before about anything relationship wise because if shes having problems - she just bottles them up.
anyway that night she opened up alot.
and told me that she knows shes been well out of order doing that but she was about to break up with me - i was like well tbh you should have come to me and talked if you had problems in the relationship not go running back to your ex...
anyway she told me and i dont begin to deny these for a second - because i have been doing them all - and 24/7 too...
that i constantlly accuse her of cheating when she hasnt been at all (except this time)
constantlly bug her for attention.
never take her out anywhere any more
and just loads of reasons really - cos i admit myself i have been a REALLY shitty boyfriend to her.
anyway atm we are on a break - but we plan to get back together (maybe - i dunno - i am a bit unsure myself on a few things - i need to see some changes myself before i get back with her properlly)
she didnt lie about any of it - but i suppose she cudnt really - i did expect her to say she was just joking about - she didnt - she said...)
i was about to break up with you anyway because i thought it would make me feel so much better - but it didnt - it did the oposite - and yeah i did wonder about my ex because he also broke up with his girlfriend at the same time - and i wondered if it was a flashing neon sign - and she said even when she was doing it she didnt really feel anything for him anymore and realised that properlly after when she decided he isnt the way to go either.
she then didnt break up with me (we had an argument after tho that did cause us to but we was back together the next day - (it was my fault lol)
i know alot of this is gonna sound very AFC (ok all of it) - and when i say it was my fault some of it i just think it is - but no really lol when i say it is it really is.
she also said if you had just trusted me in the 1st place i wouldnt have even done that.
anyway i do beleve her - and also tho like i say - certain things need to change from her side too - i havent told her yet as im still deciding how to word alot of them - i will probablly be doing that in a seperate post - and ill link it from here.
-- ok i know im in for a shouting now lol....