Im not sure if many of you guys can relate to my little issue but just wanting some input. I think giving you guys some info about me might help you understand, sorry long post.
I have lived most of my life in a small mining town where the population where the ratio of men to woman was 15-1, as you can imagine a lot of girls who came to live in the town, including average and less then average girls, all had their ego’s inflated and thought they were something special. Another issue was that almost all men in this town were tradesmen or engineers who were close to the 200k a year in wage mark. This did not help me as I was a lowly office worker who only made 65 k a year….
So as you can imagine my record with woman was pretty poor, I only ever had 2 girl friends in my life. Ironically I was physically and financially at my peak when I was living in the small town, going to the gym for 6 years strait and also was able to run 6 km after a gym session. That was when I was living at home and life was easy.
However about 2 years ago I decided I wanted to get out of the town I was living in and actually try enjoy the remainder of my youth and also increase my education and change career paths. And of course I wanted to get with as many girls as possible and make up for lost time…
Unfortunately moving to the city hasn’t been a great experience. In my first year of being in the city and uni I got sick, second year (this year) I couldn’t go out much because lack of money and also the school work has gotten harder. I haven’t gone to the gym for 2 years as I have no money to join the gym and school is getting too hard. At uni I am a “mature aged student” and cant really socialise with many girls as they are all 17 or 18,while I have just turned 28, feels awkard. I did manage to hook up with one chick for like 3 or so months but it became a big head ache.
So basically im feeling a bit I don’t know worthless right now, the money and no life situation because of uni is kind of getting at me now, I only have about 6 months of school left but im getting really depressed about not having cash or a social life.
To make matters worse I have “confidence” to go to girls at school or even random chicks in this shops and chat them up and try get phone numbers, but keep getting rejected. I guess me being only 5’6 is also a thing that is holding me back.
So that’s my situation, feeling a bit bitter and desperate I got this 21 year old chicks number from school and went for a 2 hour lunch with her about 3 weeks ago. It went well but I know this may sound a bit shallow but she wasn’t as attractive as I first saw her, and she kind of doesn’t seem like the girl that wears good clothes or puts make up on. She is from china and has been here for a couple of years, so yeah strait off the boat.
However she is a good person from what I could tell (yeah I know they all start out like that, we have been there).
So basically if I was to “grade” her looks I would give her a 4 out of 10, and that’s maybe being generous….. I haven’t called her for about 3 weeks because I got a eye infection, maybe I will look stupid trying to call her now and catching up.
So basically in a nutshell, im kind of desperate, lowered my standards, which im kind of ok with doing. But basically I just want to f_ck this girl a few times and sort of leave it at that, I don’t want a relationship, but she seems like a nice person and seems like she wants a relationship, and I feel kind of guilty of just using her for sex (if it comes to that).
Plus I only have been with 2 girls, and it was the whole girl friend thing, never really did the player sort of thing.
So sorry for the long post, but what do you think I should do?