rafc widnappers sarge journal of hope and failure

hey all just going to keep a journal of sarges so that i can see where im fcking things up..

O.k first up im not your typical guy that was popular in school so its taking me years to try and break out of AFC mode and im still learning ....anyhow

Saturday...
Went out with mate to salsa social club dance party for a social warmup before clubbing,id just spent all day watching youtube pickup vids so im in state already but when i get to the salsa social dance party they have free wine and free pizza and since i dont see many sets i grab a cup and down a small drink.

O.k so we organised some pivots to come dance with us for social proof but unfortunately ive had a wine and feel like hitting on one of our pivots for practice probably shouldn't have but i talk/flirt with her for a bit slap her on the thigh twice ugh lol and then exit to chat to girls coming outside to cool off,basically opened anything that was walking outside for a bit of practice.o.k so ive sarged a fair bit of that venue and want to Bounce.
O.k at the club now cant find any decent sets so i decide to play some dj's drums i dont know why? think it was the wine and he told me to fuk off lol, so i thought fuk im being an idiot so we bounced to another club where i was talking sht to some girls plowing conversations with girls who have no interest and sarging untill i tell them i cant be fuked talking give them a high 5 tell them to have a good night and exit.met some cute chicks probably the best set one was a gynocoligist and i came up with the most sht joke about needing a checkup and kinda stopped talking and wanted to exit the set to the next pub grabbed some girls waiste and just stood there she must have been half a foot taller than me i dont know wtf i was doing.
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Moral of this sarge for me is to not drink ive gone from being afc straight to douche bag with a small amount of alcohol.
Next sarge is tommorow night Im going to a club where most girls will be 18ish so my opener will be 'I feel like the fuken oldest guy in here"
I wont be drinking so ill see how it goes...

Been a few crap nights of going out since last post..
Wednesday..
Went to the gym after work,then to salsa then clubbing...nothing much happened that night in terms of success with women as there was another popular function on that took the crowds away it was kinda dead and i was tired and sober.

Lesson: dont go out too tired just didnt have the energy.

Thursday.went to a social language meetup with a mate who learnt japanese,then went clubbing but it was dead female wise due to rain.

Lesson: if its raining there will be less chicks weigh up if its worth it or save it for one good night out.

Friday: went to the clubs after work with compuonded tiredness from the other nights,had a few small conversations with a few girls but didnt go anywhere with things.A mate whos good at pickup was meeting me and showing me how it was done.. boom straight on the dancefloor he hooks up even giving me over the shouder commentary,does it a few times that night and he had also been laid a few times that week already.he advises me that every time i dont approach i reject a girl I knew he was right but for some reason i cannot always approach if someone who knows what hes doing is watching unless im drunk..

Lesson: need to pick up my energy and go for it,turn the brain off and grab what i want.

see what tonight brings..

If you're getting so tired (and broke I'm guessing if you go out every day), then why don't you do some day game instead and go out on thursday, friday, saturday or so?
That way, you'll save loads of money and energy. And girls are everywhere on mid-week days, except for in clubs.

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'Fear only holds you back. Get the fark out of your comfort zone!'

'I am now at a point I never thought I would reach, and there are still points I can't imagine being at yet, but I'll slowly break down the barriers one by one and keep reaching every next goal.'

hey mate,yeah will be doing some daygame today if all goes to plan and yeah it costs a bit to go out all the time at night so ill be cutting back .

Saturday..
to help myself get into a better state before heading out I start watching a few pua and comedy vids on youtube and while im out getting lunch i decide to buy a wig and wear it for a while at home to see if it had any value in unstifling me lol.


O.k so were walking toward the club at about 9pm and i warmup by saying 'hey bro' to a few bouncers.Im with two rafc mates and the good pua from friday we lose him easy because hes always isolating some chick so its down to our AFC game.We try chatting to these girls but my friends opener sounded about as loud as a sparrow farting in the wind which they choose to ignore so i thought fuk these bitches and opened Loud and solid 'hey guys!...hows things!..' i transition into names and sht and get a txt from our good pu mate about a minute in to 'escalate! lol which makes me realise weve probably lost this set so we exit.

I then see a 3set on the dancefloor and i decide to try being a bit more caveman animated and fortunatly the girls dont scatter like the others lol so i take it as a green light we chat I use a bit of push pull they sht test me a few times to see if im for real as im not a generically attractive pua but i think were still waiting for too much of a green light before just going for a kiss or whatever so we roll off before the conversation dies and maybe bump into them later.

I head to the upstairs part of the club and some tall blond bird maybe an 8 comes and takes a sip of my water i tease by telling her its vodka and she kinos me but im in no state to game a girl a foot taller than me and the high 5 from my wings that she saw might have put her off.
to cut a long story short we have a few more deadend sets and them head home.

one friend from the night didnt open so when we got to his car he wanted to head to one last club..i was kinda drained but we went in i had 0 energy but got shtty and decided to dance like an absolute wanker fist pumping and sht next minute two birds are bumping into me but the boyfriend trys to AMOG my dancing so i sit down next minute this damn cute bird grabs me and i start to dance lambada/salsa with her im nearly ready to seal the deal after a few minutes of dancing but I can also feel Ive hit the edge of my current game which i need to keep pushing so i bail at the first chance as im not ready for success with a girl that is that attractive i wasnt ready for it..kinda fuked up i know...she may have also just been flirting or had a boyfriend but then again thats probably my afc fears coming out to make me sabotage it.
We exit and i see a set of strippers so i ask them if they had made any money and if i could retire etc the one closest to me is responding but the far one says a quiet eww lol so im blocked again....

well that was my afc night guys...
Lesson for me. saturdays a good night...take more risks with isolation and Escalation.